Last nite sms to Laopo..sms say i noe forgettin a person is not tat easy n so on n so for lor
coz she told me she stil thinkin of her 1st ex.. den she today mornin sms me say if u wan to break den break lor.. den i call her chat..say if i say dun wan to break can ma? tok abt 15mins le.den settle everything le..
den i apologise to her..coz i once promised her wont let her shed a tear for me de..but she stil shed le.haiz..
even though she seem like not angry le..but i stil blame myself..=(( den she keep thinkin tat is not fair to me lor.. but i tell nvm..i dun mind lor..hmmhmm..
tiz comin tues meetin wif her le..muz take the chance to apologise to her sincerely lor.. coz is my fault for sayin those stupid msg de..haiz..
den she now at expo wif her frenz watchin movie..haiz..wat can i do to decrease the blames on myself de leh?? haiz..
even though sometimes i do think tat there is quite no freedom in a relationship..but i stil had to hold on..coz everything come in not easy way.so muz learn to cherish it..
few more days my hp bill comin le..dunno how much le lor..=.= mayb had to use my saved de $$ pay liao..if not sure will get kan seriously by my mum n sis de.. haiz..tat y my parents dun like me use line de..coz they noe if i use line..confirm sms till v.jialat de.. so they might as well giv me prepaid use lor..as least got balance.. sianz..
dunno wat to do now lor..haiz.. sianz...
tonite wan to ask my dad brin me go clubbin agn liao..=(( coz dunno wat to do to decrease my blames lor.. i scared pain so cannot use penknife cut myself.. i hate smokin so cannot smoke to destress..
only way is to drink to numb myself lor.. haiz..even though tml got sch..but i can only think of tiz way to numb myself.. even i noe i m stupid..coz tml wake up..the problem will stil b there for u to solve.. but a day goes..den count a day lor.. haiz..
i reli love her alot lor..cannot imagine if she insist of breakin wif me..i think i will breakdown ba.. coz seriously..she is my 3rd gal le..n oso i love the most de lor.. even the 1st two gals i oso didnt focus so much love lor..but tiz 3rd gal let me focus many many love on her..
so i dun wan to lose her..i noe i cannot let her forget her ex..coz her ex giv her de memories let her dun wan to forget..but i dun mind bein her ex de subtitute lor..even is transparent de i oso dun mind..but i juz dun wish to lose her..coz i lose her i will lose my light in my world..
haiz..hope everything would b beta ba..=(( Thx Laopo for everything..I will cherish our happy moments till i leave tiz world.. N of coz last but not least..Today is our 1wk le..Hope in future got 1mth,1 yr den bcome 10 mths,10yrs..=)) hope u will b hapi today..=D muackz!!! Hapi 1wk!!! =D
