When i got to know my results is really sucks,
I really prayed that you would be the one sitting beside me and consoling me,
But you are not there,
When i am totally lost of words of what to tell my mum about my results,
I prayed you would give me some advices of yours,
But you are not there,
And when i really need a listener and counsellor,
You are not there for me,
Why,why,why?
Why can't you be there when i need you?
Why can't you be there when i want you?
Why no one is there when i need someone to be there for me,
Why i still wanted you to be there when i know it was totally impossible?
Could you tell me you would stay for my sake?
I know you wont,
Because i know you had forgotten my presence in this world,
Sorry that i had brought so much hurts for you in this world,
Just hoping those hurts that i used to gave you would disappear just like me when i bringing these hurts to a world of darkness.
Next year i am going into Army,
As i know myself,
Everything is worse then others,
When i can't even swim,
Can't even run for a few minutes as i get tired easily,
Can't even do a simple pull up,
So i guess i can walk into Army,
But i can't be sure that i will walk out of the Army,
Just hoping you would be by my side supporting me,
Praying for me,asking me to do well,
I guess i will try my best to do well,
Even i had to die inside the army,
I would do it for you,
But i know that i had no chance to heard a sentence of encouraging words from you.
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