S.H.E
曲：深白色(Arys chien) 词：徐世珍编曲：洪敬尧
LRC:叶泽生
谁拉住我 谁救救我 我从高空 狠狠地坠落谁叫醒我 说这是梦 说你和她 什么都还没有在窒息的沉默中你 握痛我的手 爱怎么了 我怎么了一句话都没有说 我曾经以为爱情应该诚实 但诚实却是最尖锐的刀子你坦白一切留给我决定是多么的自私 我恨你 就连你的感谢都太诚实你不懂最大的温柔是掩饰 在我转身之前你看不到我流泪的样子你没有错 我没有错 是一阵风 吹熄了承诺你挣扎过 你要我懂 那谁来懂我心里的黑洞我从来没有这么 渴望你欺骗我掀开一切 千疮百孔 明天到底怎么过 我曾经以为爱情应该诚实 但诚实却是最尖锐的刀子
你坦白一切留给我决定是多么的自私 我恨你 就连你的感谢都太诚实
你不懂最大的温柔是掩饰 在我转身之前你看不到我流泪的样子我曾经以为爱情应该诚实 但诚实却是最尖锐的刀子
你坦白一切留给我决定是多么的自私 我恨你 就连你的感谢都太诚实
你不懂最大的温柔是掩饰 在我转身之前你看不到我流泪的样子
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When i got to know my results is really sucks,
I really prayed that you would be the one sitting beside me and consoling me,
But you are not there,
When i am totally lost of words of what to tell my mum about my results,
I prayed you would give me some advices of yours,
But you are not there,
And when i really need a listener and counsellor,
You are not there for me,
Why,why,why?
Why can't you be there when i need you?
Why can't you be there when i want you?
Why no one is there when i need someone to be there for me,
Why i still wanted you to be there when i know it was totally impossible?
Could you tell me you would stay for my sake?
I know you wont,
Because i know you had forgotten my presence in this world,
Sorry that i had brought so much hurts for you in this world,
Just hoping those hurts that i used to gave you would disappear just like me when i bringing these hurts to a world of darkness.
Next year i am going into Army,
As i know myself,
Everything is worse then others,
When i can't even swim,
Can't even run for a few minutes as i get tired easily,
Can't even do a simple pull up,
So i guess i can walk into Army,
But i can't be sure that i will walk out of the Army,
Just hoping you would be by my side supporting me,
Praying for me,asking me to do well,
I guess i will try my best to do well,
Even i had to die inside the army,
I would do it for you,
But i know that i had no chance to heard a sentence of encouraging words from you.
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Do you know untill now i am still crying over you,
When things had already passed a year plus,
Everyday when i passed by the places that we sat and laugh together,
My heart is truly ached,
I couldn't sleep in the middle of night,
So i wake up,and see the places that we sat together right under my house,
The songs we used to listen together,
The memories had been craving in my heart,
I had been telling myself to forget you,
But when i am listening to the songs,
My heart cried,
I couldn't control myself,
And burst into tears,
Even though everything is not worth it,
But what can i do when the tears is going to burst?
I wished you had never appear in my world,
So you do not have the chance to turn my world into a darkness world,
I wish we can go back to the places that we sat and laugh together again,
Just to see the smile on your face,
Everything that i done would be truly worth it,
But could you ever sense that untill now,
Someone is still thinking of you?
Could you ever feel that,
Someone is still missing you?
Could your heart know that,
Someone is still loving you deep in the heart?
I had tried to control my tears for a few times,
But tears eventually had still been dripping from my eyes,
And blood had been dripping in my heart,
But no one could see and know the pain that i had,
Thinking and missing you every night had made me had a sleepless night,
If i could learn to cherish you in the first place,
You wouldn't found a reason to leave my side,
Why i would want to learn to cherish you,
When you are no longer by my side,
Why i would still want you to return to my side,
When i know it is totally impossible?
Why i would still want to hold your hand,
When i know that your heart had already forgotten my presence,
Ten thousands of whys appear in my mind again and again,
And untill now,
Those answers are still in a world of mystery.
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GoTcHa! =XX sNaPsHoT..HAHA!!
Tat is all the pics for sun outin..
hmm!! wake up at ard 2.30pm..cox eye v.pain lor.
sianz..
after tat..brush teeth,bath den prepare to go out le..
took bus 80 to kovan meet my mum..
den took 136 to serangoon garden way to eat..
ordered ayam fish,sotong n wanton mee..
the wanton mee not nice one..hahaha!!
den order a big glass of sugar cane drink..
thot the drink juz a huge glass like those coffee shop de..
but dunno is so "large"
hahaha!!
after eatin,ard 5+,my dad wan go buy soccer
den i n my mum wait for him..
ard 6.15pm go take bus intend go back to kovan
but wait till 7pm no bus came..
den intend to take cab..
when we r on the cab,found out one of the bus had broken down,n there is only way to tat busstop..so all the cars n buses jam behind..
omg..the jammin is damn long one..
hahaha!!
reached kovan there ard 7.30..
my dad go buy some breads..
den bought bubble tea,while walk while drink..
=))
den hm sweet hm ard 8.30 ba..
haiz..dunno how to tell my mum abt it..haiz..
so confused..=((
Thx Jul n jaslyn for consolin me in msn wor..
Thx u v.much..=))
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Eh!!
today is damn shit one..
mornin wake up drink water..found myself had a
SWOLLEN EYE!eh!!! =.=
try to wash it wif water,is damn painful lor..
after tat went back to slp..
slp till 2.30 wake up..found is not so swollen le..
but stil kena scold by my dad tat i every nite slp late juz to play com tat y will hav swollen eye
=.="
haiz..
sianz!!!
dunno wan to go out or not leh..
feelin
SO BORED la..
=.=
nowadays alot of ppl lazy to come in blog le..
so i think fs n blogger de popularity had been droppin ba..
if their popularity dropped..mean my frenz oso dropped lor..
y leh??
cox havin lesser n lesser frenz tagged me n commented me ma
hehe..
lame hor??
so fast reached sun le..
mon to wed is
HAZEL NOTI GAL exams..
mayb wed can meet wif her
mayb cannot..will try to confirm it on mon or tues ba..
=))
Anybody noe if wan to hav a BBQ pit in east coast,izit expensive ma??Cox i thinkin to hav a BBQ durin my bday..but dunno whether got ppl wan to go or not..Those readin my blog de..do giv me some advices as i didnt create a BBQ pit b4..Thx!! Ur advices would b greatly appreciated..=))
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Hmm..
Hazel ar..stil rem at first how we noe each other de??
lol..if i didnt rem wrong..is by msn de rite??
anyway..truly thx god for lettin me to noe u..
tat we can b gd frenz n probably stead in the future?
haha!! i guess u gt regret knowin me tiz fren ba??
lol..cox i noe i ownself got attitude problem de..
=DD
but i didnt regret knowin u at all..=DD
even though some ppl say,gonna meet some wrong one b4 u get the chance to meet the correct one..
juz hope u r the correct one for me..n probably i m the correct one for u too??
=))
Via online..i noe many gd frenz..
Irene,CY,Jaslyn,Ting,Sihui,Julin,XiaO XuE,YingYinG,Wei Qi..
N of cox
HAZEL lor..
=))
thx u all for consolin me n cheerin me up when i m feelin down..
mayb u all got a bit regret knowin me..
but i didnt regret knowin u all b4..
=DD
Hazel,i will always b ur rubbishbin for u to use it whenever u need to find someone to tok,someone to vent anger,someone to cry on de..=)
u all muz kampateh in ur studies kk..
u all got my support in watever u do..
=DD
jyjy!!
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Here to post a short one..=)
Cox HAZEL QUEEN ask me to post de..=XX
after a week,even if we can or cannot b stead
we r stil best frenz rite??
=DD
I juz wan to thx u for givin me a small small chance,
But i noe is difficult to walk into ur heart..
mayb in the future got chance or mayb no chance,
who noe?
haha..
nvm la
even if ur last choice is not me,i would understand..
as i noe myself is not a gd guy..n not everyone can stand my stupid attitude
=))
no matter wat is the outcome..
i givin u my blessin wishin u all the best to u in ur future road..=D
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Why I love you,
I had to release you,
To give you back your freedom,
Why no one is there for me,
When i need a shoulder to cry on,
Because i am missing you badly,
That i cried every night before i sleep.
Even when i sleeping,
My mind is still thinking of your pretty images,
And your voice that been talking to me,
But your voice had kept telling me to forget you,
Telling me that you are not worth it to be in my dream,
If you think you are not worth it to be in my dream,
Then no one is no longer worth it to be in my dream anymore.
I only want you to be in my mind,
I wish you are always there for me,
Whenever i need a helping hand,
You would be the first to reach there,
Whenever i need a shoulder to lean on,
You would be the first to be there,
Whenever i need a listening ear,
You would be there to listen to my rubbish even by keeping quiet,
When you are by my side,
I would feel secure,
When you are by my side,
I felt that i had the whole world in my hand,
Perhaps you had choosen the right choose by leaving my side,
To make the entire world to be in your hand.
Now you had the whole world in your hand,
But my world had been destroyed by you,
Just becsause of your words,
It are just like a sharpen knife,
Goes straight into my heart,
And you are so heartless,
Left me bleeding non stop,
And my heart had been broken into small pieces,
So my heart had prounced
DEAD.
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Here r the pics for sun outin..
me n my sis =)
my mum n me =)
my mum n dad =)
whole family pic.=D
my mum n sis..=D
Tat is all the pics for the whole outin..=D
Afternoon ard 2 wake up..den my dad stil playin com..
after a while,my mum call my dad,ask we go prepare to go out..
hahaha! den take mrt go to chinatown,saw my mum waitin for us le..=X
she say she cannot find the resturant named "tian jing lou"
so decide to take bus go to bugis n go to tian tian huo guo,
as my sis work at bugis,easier for her to go..=D
after eatin,ard 7+ ba,decide to take some pics(above)
den after tat,suggest go swendens eat some icecream,as for it to digest..
hahaha!! the workers so gd,say help me take pic,but i didnt manage to put as i dun hav scanner.
haha!! mayb next yr i bday oso go eat western? =P as it service is gd..=X
hmm..den hm sweet hm ard 9.15pm ba..
sori if the pics is not nice..=X i mean me..=PP
last but not least.. DADDY,HAPI BDAY!! =DD
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Days after days,
Rain after rain,
Rainbow after rainbow,
I found myself in a world,
Where is filled with your images,
Telling me to forget you,
But you couldn't know that i couldn't forget you for even one second,
Things had been miserable for me,
As your images had grown deeper day by day.
Loving you deeply is what i do in the past,
Missing you deeply is what i do in the present,
And Thinking of you deeply is what i do in the future,
I couldn't forget you,
But i know you had already forgotten me,
Nothing that i do in the past had touched your heart once,
Thinking of you daily really makes my heart aches,
But i couldn't stop thinking of you,
I think now the blue skies had crave my heart in the empty sky,
To tell you that i am missing you right now,
And if you saw stars in middle of the night,
Do look it out,
Because i had crave my love for you to become the brightest stars in the world.
I am sorry that i had hurt you in the past,
And i am truly regreted in the present,
And this regret would follow me to the future of the darkness,
Untill the end of this world,
So this regret would end just like this world had ended.
I had tried to use other people to cover your images in my heart,
But as time goes on,
I know it is wrong,
But as i know it is wrong,
Everything comes too late,
As i had hurt other people too,
Just because i wish to forget you,
I used other people as a covering pan,
As i think it is a way to forget you forever,
But things had gone into this stage,
I found myself is still deeply loving you,
But everything had been too late to turn back,
All i had are just regrets for me to bring into the future of the darkness.
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Hmm.
Damn!
i havin a
BAD FLU!eh..sneeze till throat v.pain..
ate some flu medi but seem like dun reli hav effect..
sianz..
nvm..
i dun intend to c doc oso..
lol!!
let it automatic recover ba..
my tiz stupid body c doc oso useless de..
cox v.easily fall sick de..
get use to it le lor..
=))
sori if i had let some of my frenz worri for me..
thx for ur concern.
dun wori..
i m alrite de..
rest for few days shld b fine de lor..
=DD
juz hope i would b fine in the next few days ba..
lol..cox i feel like eatin my fav,western foods!!!
but cox of my throat pain so i temp cannot eat lor..
sad!!!
pray hard!!!
hope i faster recover..
=DD
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Hmm..
Joleen sunnu wont b bloggin le..
sad sia..
she already mia le..
den now she didnt blog le..
bored liao lor
=.=
today dun reli hav things to blog lor..
so boring de day sia..
=.=
another stupid day had gone le..
haiz!!
k le la..
HAPI 14TH BDAY!!
HOPE U GET EVERYTHING ON UR WISHES WOR..
=DD
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Here comes another normal posting..
haha!!
hmm..say abt sat de outin wif irene n kumiko..
lol lol..
wake up at ard 12+
den receive kumiko sms say meet at 4.30pm
den i reach bugis there ard 4 ba..
waitin for irene,kumiko n their frenz..
den saw them le.
passed irene the present den start to walk here walk there..
lol..
in the end walk till 5+ le..pei they all go eat mac..
while eatin..they suggest takin pics..
hahaha!!
finish eatin..den one of their fren need to go le..
we continue our walkin at bugis street..
woo..so crowded..
haha!!
walk le..den suggest go tampines there..
take mrt go to tampines..
walk at TM n century square..
den walk till 7+ they suggest go eat dinner le..
went to eat kfc..
after that..den go hm le..
hm sweet hm ard 9 ba..
=))
i went out wif them..den didnt reli tok wif them..
haha!! i m so ps sia..=XX
hmm..anyway..
IRENE..
HAPI 18TH BDAY..=DD
HOPE U GET GD WISHES EVERYDAY WOR..=DD
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Alrite..
Tiz come normal posting..
Hmm.
sori for late postin..cox lazy to post la..=P
Say abt thurs outin wif yingying cockeye n CR..
wake up at abt 10++am
den jiu saw yingying de msg..
haha!!
ard 11 go take 87 go bedok le..
reach bedok ard 11.50++
so go 168 lane there wait for CR n yingying..
den ard 12.15 yingying reach le..
haha!
den me tok a while wif yingying..
cox while waitin for CR ma..
den in the end CR 1pm den reach bedok..
=.=""
take 168 go causeway point..
cox yingying wan to meet her fren..
reach causeway point le..
yingying pass something to her fren..
den tok tok tok..
find place to eat lor..
mi n CR go mac buy drinks nia..
den ard 4 or 5+ decide to take bus to compass point..
i forget take wat bus le..
den yingying n her frenz go take neoprint..
me n CR wait outside for them lor..
in the end yingying got a call frm her neighbor de child??
i guess so..
den she say she goin back le..
so i acc her n CR go inter take 87 to bedok..
after tat go buy bubble tea n slowly walk hm..
hm sweet hm ard 7+ ba..
haha!! tat all for tat day..=D
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翻着我们的照片 想念若隐若现
去年的冬天我们笑得很甜 看着你哭泣的脸对着我说再见
来不及听见你已走得很远 也许你已经放弃我
也许已经很难回头 我知道是自己错过
请再给我一个理由说你不爱我 就算是我不懂 能不能原谅我
请不要把分手当作你的请求 我知道坚持要走是你受伤的借口
请你回头我会陪你一直走到最后 就算没有结果我也能够承受
我知道你的痛是我给的承诺 你说给过我纵容
沉默是因为包容 如果要走 请你记得我
翻着我们的照片 想念若隐若现
去年的冬天我们笑得很甜 看着你哭泣的脸对着我说再见
来不及听见你已走得很远 也许你已经放弃我
也许已经很难回头 我知道是自己错过
请再给我一个理由说你不爱我 就算是我不懂 能不能原谅我
请不要把分手当作你的请求 我知道坚持要走是你受伤的借口
请你回头我会陪你一直走到最后 就算没有结果我也能够承受
我知道你的痛是我给的承诺 你说给过我纵容
沉默是因为包容 如果要走 请你记得我
如果难过 请你忘了我
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I am so stupid,
Knowing that you would never ever come back to my side,
But still waiting for that so called miracle to appear,
I know i had hurt you a lot,
So you can no longer trust me neither nor my words,
No matter how i said to you,
You will no longer believe in it,
It is a good thing that you did not listen to my words,
So you will never get cheated by my words for once again.
You will never get to see a happy-go-lucky boy again,
That is in the past,
But past eventually is a past,
In the future,
You will only get to see a boy,
Who is forever stucked in a place where is filled with darkness and lonelyness.
For others,
It is easy to find a new love,
As they can walk out of the darkness world easily when they had a helping hand,
But for me,
I had no helping hand,
That is the reason why i am forever stucked in the world of darkness,
Once is stucked in that world,
Forever would be stucked in that world.
Why am i so stupid,
When there are people willing to save me out of that darkness world,
I choose to reject them,
Is it that i am waiting for the one and only you to save me out of that world,
Or i am waiting for the new mystery person to do the job?
As time slowly goes by,
I still unable to see a single sight of brightness,
I could only see darkness
Where is filled with emo,lonely,quietness.
Who can tell me what to do,
In order to walk out of that world of darkness,
And able to find a sight of light,
So i won't be able to feel lonelyness and quietness,
Please,
Tell me what to do,
In order to be happy.
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Tell me that you would not leave my side,
Even though you are lying to me,
But stay by my side can?
Let me enjoy the last few seconds of happiness,
Even if it needs my entire life to exchange,
I would say nothing,
But only Yes I Do!
If dying really is my destiny,
No matter how i trying to run,
I eventually cannot run away from dying,
Dying is painful,
But the more i trying to avoid it,
The more i would get my destiny.
So i would not to run away from it,
And i would accept it,
If my time is really up,
I would accept it,
And leave this world peacefully.
No worries had to made for me,
I promise i will leave this world with smile,
Promise me,
Smile for me when you are there to see me,
No tears is allowed,
Because i would not like any of my friends to cry for me.
Make me smile even i am gone can?
The only way to make me smile,
Is to smile when you are there to see me,
That is the one and only way to make me smile,
So I can leave this world happily as well as peacefully.
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I don't mind even if you don't love me,
As long as you let me love you is enough,
Even though loving you is short,
But i am happy to have a short and happy memories,
Because no one can replaced the happy memories that you gave me.
You changed my world into a rainbow for once,
But you had also changed my world into a piece of darkness for all,
You gave me rainbow after the rain had gone,
But soon after it,
You took away the rainbow,
Left the darkness for me to live in
But i do not know how to survive inside a piece of a world of darkness.
You taught me how to live in a rainbow world,
But you did not taught me how to leave when you are in a darkness world,
And once and for all,
I am forever stuck in the world of darkness.
Your appearance had brought a strong colors of rainbow to me,
But your leaving had brought a strong colors of darkness to me too,
No matter what i do,
Where i go,
I will see nothing but darkness.
Your words could bring me to heaven,
Your words could also bring to me hell,
Your words had brought me to the heaven in the past,
But now your words had already brought me to hell when you are gone.
No point saying sorry when what cannot be done had already done,
Sorry can no longer cure the pain in my heart,
Sorry can no longer cure the suffers that i had gone through,
Sorry can no longer destroy the pretty images that you are in my mind,
You had hurt me,
And i thanks you for hurting me,
Because of your hurting,
I would find my own way to my life,
And that is DARKNESS.
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You are my sunshine when the sun is gone,
You are my rainbow when the rain is gone,
You are my moon that shines so bright,
But ever since you are gone,
Everything changed,
My world had been darkened when the sun is gone,
My world had been darkened when the rain is gone,
My world had been darkened when the sky gone dark,
When you are not by my side,
Everything had been darkened for me.
When you are by my side,
I had nothing to fear,
Because i know i got you by my side whenever i need it,
But when you are gone,
Everything had been weaken for me,
When you are by my side,
I hold your heart so tight,
When you are gone,
I felt so pain when i had to release your precious heart,
I am a hopeless and unromantic guy,
But the love i gave you in the past is my truly pure love,
Your presence let me felt what is love,
Love is something that you can't live without with,
Love is you needed someone to quarrel with you in order to find the right feeling,
Love is so pretty even you had to eat plain rice with your loved ones.
You asked me why i do love you,
I answered you:"no reason",
Because i love your everything,
I love your smile,
I love your voice,
I love your attitude,
I love your eyes,
I love the softness of your skin,
I love the sweetness when you talk,
That is what i love you.
When i lost my way,
I do not need a map neither nor a compass to help me,
What i need is my heart,
I knew my heart would lead me to find you,
I knew your voice had been slowly whisper in my ears to find my way to u,
I knew my eyes would have your images to let me know where is my way to find you,
If i would never find my way to perish,
My soul would find its way to perish.
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爱你的心没人明白，
想你的心没人知道，
对你的思念是一天比一天深，
想起有人跟我斗嘴，
想起有人跟我有说有笑，
想起有人会找我发泄的时候，
我是多么想念那个时刻。
我每天都在想，
我为何不会学如何去爱你，
我为何要选择伤害你，
失去你之后才想要挽回一切，
但才知道你己不属于我了，
我想跟你说声，
对不起。
我知道我伤你太过深，
所以你不能再相信我的话，
所以希望你能找到比我更爱你的人，
我在这里，
忠心的祝福你，
希望你能比从前开心。
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你走了，
你也把我的幸福给带走了，
让我一辈子再也找不到我的幸福，
我却只能给你远远的祝福，
爱你却要放你走。
开心是什么，我不知道，
开朗是什么，我不知道，
我只知道什么是黑暗，
什么是寂寞，
我们曾经还说要一起看星星，
永远谁都不可以离开谁的，
但这个愿望在也不实现了，
要一起看的日出和日落，
我们也不能在一起看了，
孤单的我还是在默默的等你回来。
美丽的梦何时才能出现？
我何时又能见到美丽的你？
为什么爱你又要放弃你？
只想跟你说，
你这爱情傻瓜到现在还在等你回来。
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