Alrite..
i m here to post..
hmmhmm..
i now being posted to my camp de driver..
now only havin lesson talks lor..
few wks later den start driving course..
when drivin course start..only sat afternoon den can book out..sun nite muz book in..
sianz..somemore the training camp is at sembawang camp..=((
say truthfully..i dun hav confidence lor..cox will b drivin a tunnel..
so is damn difficult to control as well as reverse..
u cannot hav a single mistake..if not u will fail the whole course..
n oso muz hav the paper test..haiz..paper test i oso no confidence..so ask me how to go take the driving test leh???
sianz..how how?? =.=
can get a free license i noe is gd la..so next time go out dun need test agn..
but i totally no confidence leh..HOW??!!
haiz..CR go that camp train so long le..till now havent go back to selarang camp..
i think the test is reli difficult ba..so i dunno how to make it lor..
2mths training say fast not fast,say slow not slow.
haiz..but how to survive it is another question le..
sianz..
how to gain confidence leh?
who can teach me??
haiz..
later goin out wif my mum to parkway de giant walk walk..
sianz sianz..
tiz few days i didnt msg u..sori..
cox i tiz few days reach hm v.tired le..
so didnt msg u..hope u dun angry..
i everyday need to wake up at 5..cox i scared i would b late..so no choice..
but i will try my best to msg u when i get on the bus le..
anyway..i noe ur exams comin le..
hao hao jy in ur exams ba..
do ur best jiu hao..dun force urself too much..
i will supportin u n prayin for u tat u will do well de..
=))
我不知道怎么做才能让你知道我爱你,
所以我只能默默的为你祈祷,
希望你做什么都能顺顺利利..
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你给我爱的感觉但你却不知道我爱的就是你,
所谓的远在天边近在眼前,
我的爱就是你,
是你让我从新认识爱情,
虽然你不知道给我从新认识爱情的人是你,
但我会默默的守护着你,
默默的爱你,
我就开心了．
我没见过你,
但我已经在想你了,
很希望也很期待能够有一天跟你一起出去,
很想你,
好想你,
忘不了你对我说的每一句话,
想念你的每一个微笑,
我很想跟你一起看美丽的日出,
然后轻轻在你耳边说我爱你.
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I decide to learn to love a person again,
So i must learn how to let you go,
I know the process would be tough,
But I believe if got determination,
Nothing is impossible.
Gonna say goodbye to my sleepless nights,
Say goodbye to my tears that had been dropping for you,
Say goodbye to my miserable nights towards you,
Say goodbye to my darkness world,
Say hello to my brand new bright world,
Say hello to my brand new smile that i had for future,
Say hello to everything that i had for the brightness world!!
I finally get to know what is a feeling to fall in love for someone,
Maybe i held everything too tight in the past,
That is the reason i couldn't feel anything that is around me,
But now,
I could feel the cold wind blows,
Just like the wind of the love blows,
It was so cooling,
I gonna enjoy the wind while it is still there,
I gonna cherish everything I can while I am still alive,
I gonna learn how to love you and give you all my love,
I gonna cherish every minute,every second spent with you
And make you feel like the happiest as well as a luckiest princess in this world,
Thanks for giving me that feeling again,
Because I thought that i can never ever found that feeling again,
But your encouragments and your words make my day bright once again,
For that,
I would learn to give you all my best of the best.
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I was missing you so much,Untill i couldn't fall asleep at night,So i decide to stare into the sky to look out for the stars,The stars resembled your face,I held a picture of you and stare hard into the stars,After a while i fall asleep with your picture in my arms,I am using it as a blanket,And it felt so warm to me.In the morning,The sun rise,I saw your face in the sky,Thinking of the joys and laughter that you had brought to me in the past,You had bought a lot of sunlight into my world,But when you are gone,Everything had gone darken for me,Whatever i am doing,I saw your face and soul around me.I am still missing you very much,How do you expect me to do then you will be willing to return to my side,Our past didn't even touched your heart before or our past is no longer worth it for you to think about it?Maybe you don't even care about our past since you think that this is no longer important to you,But it would be very important to me because it holds a memory and a past of us,The joys,Laughters,Pictures that we took,Songs that we sang together,Hands that we held together,Lips that we kissed together,Everything had still held inside deeply and bottom of my heart,I just hope you could make a turn back to the place that we first met,But i know you don't even remember what is it now,I am so disappointed in everything that i had for this relationship,Because no matter what i do,This relationship can no longer bear any fruit,I am so sad,That you don't hold a part of my memory in your heart,I am so angry,That you don't a hold a part of our relationship because i didn't even manage to give you a happy relationship.For everything,I only had myself to blame.
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Why wind couldn't blow away my love for you?Why wind couldn't blow away my heart,So I won't have any chance to feel sad when you left me,I really felt very hurt when you said you are going to leave my side,But i knew you will never ever change your decision from the moment you said it,So i got no choice but to let you go,It truly hurts me.Untill now,I think you still don't understand my love for you,I do not expect any return from you,What I wish is I can get attention from you,Just a slight attention would make my day happy,But you just not willing to give,It makes me hurts a lot,And you are not there to concern me,It makes my day down like hell.Have you ever loved me truly before?I really wish I could know the answer that had been keeping in your heart,Because in the past,I could only give you all my best love,But i had never knew what is your answer that had been keeping in your heart,Is it that love could really be taking up and putting down easily?Labels: Every presents you gave me, I had still kept it in my heart, waiting for you to mention it to ask me to let you see my heart.
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Why do I keep thinking that our love would appear some kind of miracle?I really do not know what is exactly on your mind,Making both of us drifting such a big gap between us,I do want to ask you what is exactly happened to us,But i do not want to know the truth because i know the truth is always hurts,I know i can't run away from the truth eventually,But i do not want to face the truth alone,I want to face the truth with you,But everything that i want is totally impossible for me.The more i would want to know what are you thinking,The more i couldn't guess what is exactly on your mind,The only thing i could do,Is to see you drifting further and further from my sight,What i hope is the wind could bring back your soul to my side,As least when i felt cold in the middle of the night,Something that belongs to you are by my side,I would felt warm.I hope i could saw your face in the sky,So i could draw your cute and sweet face by using the stars,And it could help me fall asleep when i couldn't fall asleep,Because your cute and sweet face could console my soul to sleep,And my mind and heart would even smile when falling asleep,Because i know your face had been there to keep me asleep through out the night,And i had your cute and sweet face to be my blanket,So i do not need to be afraid of colds,Because i know you do not want me to fall sick,So you will be there for me.But from the day you said those words,You had broke my soul into pieces,I couldn't fall asleep at night,It was so cold,The sky was so dark,That I keep staring in the sky,Hoping something would appear,But I waited and waited,Nothing comes out,From the night to the day,I had been waiting for something,That i know that would never ever appear in my entire life,And that is YOU.
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Today is my grandpa 7th year death anniversary..
haiz..7 yrs so fast pass le..
i stil miss him so much..
miss the words tat he used to console me..
haiz..
sad sad..
wat to do leh??
they all had their POP parade last nite..
they r now "private" but i m stil a recruit..
hoho..gd for them..
nth abt tat..juz feelin a bit down..
nvm..guess would b fine after a while ba..
i walked my 24km route march..but i stil cannot pass out
eventually stil muz accept the fact tat i m stil a recruit..
mayb i stil think hapi..cox i dun need to recourse BMT
so it might b a gd thing to me??
mayb?? i oso dunno..
sianz sianz.
walked 24km le..leg so pain..leg got blisters..walk oso pain..
haiz...
juz hope future road would b easier for me since i completed 3mths of trainin..
truly hope so lor..
i noe it had been quite long since i posted pics le..
sori..i too lazy to post le..i noe my post is boring..
but i reli lazy to post pics..mayb will do it when i got free time ba..
Labels: Grandpa..i truly miss you alot..appear on my mind once again, will you?
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sianz sianz..
y everyday oso so sianz de..
few more days to POP le..
all ppl r lookin forward..but i m not..
y?? cox i m not takin part in the parade..
haiz..
the reason is cox i got go tekong..but i didnt go live shooting..didnt pass my fitness test..
so my sergent say i cannot pass out..
i guess i would b stayin in tat freakin camp lor??
sianz..
if need to repeat my BMT den would b more sianz..cox need to repeat another 3mths..
haiz!!!
c all ppl can pass out..yet i m envyin at a corner..
haiz..so sianz..
hopefully can post to the storeman lor..beta den repeatin my BMT..but i scared i need to repeat my 3mths BMT cox i fail my fitness test..
haiz..
SCARED LEH!!! HOW!!!
haiz..i m so useless..
=((
freakin moodless now..
anybody is there to console me?
haiz..
Labels: Missing every images of you that keep appearing in my mind..
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