Em0 B0l

2010-02-11T16:26:00.002+08:00

Why do you want to use your lies to cheat on me?
Made me saw a little sight of the rainbow,
But you killed me in the next second,
Why???

Sigh..Is it use your lies to cheat on people to make people happy is only what you know and can do?
I am really disappointed on you when i discovered what you had done to me,
Nothing BUT A BUNCH OF LIES!
Why??
Why am i always will be the last person to know the truth?
You really made me look like a fool!!

If you could tell the truth to me earlier,perhaps i won't be so hateful
but WHY I AM THE LAST PERSON TO GET TO KNOW THE TRUTH??
Either you don't let me know the truth forever or you could just tell me face to face,
But why you choose to hide from me just like nothing had just happened?
I would give you one tight slap if i didn't regard you as my friend,
Really...Trust me..
When someone really lies to me like what you did,
I guess i would find something to whack,
But i don't know why when i know the truth from you,
I choose to walk away in silence,
Is it because i didn't even have the hates in my mind or i had feelings for you so it would made my hates goes away??
I don't even know the answer..
I only know my heart had just sank as deep as the sea.. =(

2010-01-24T13:59:00.003+08:00

We could not make it in the previous time,
Didn't manage to say goodbye,
I am still waiting in our memories,
Hoping you would come back to my arms,
And you would let me dry your tears again,
Would ask me to lend you my shoulder when you are down,
Would ask me to lend you my ears when you are happy,
Missed the moments that you put your head on my chest,
And the times that we held our hands and walked all the way from the starting to the ending of the beach.

Seeing our past photos,
Knowing that we had lots of happy moments,
But God knows that we would get such a sad ending,
Now perhaps you are leading a happy life,
But you won't know that someone is still waitng for you on the place that we broke up,
Thinking of our past made me cried every night,
Knowing that we are not made to be together,
But still want to know whether going back together would be possible or not,
I had been learning how to let someone go,
But it is truly hurts when you are about to do so.

Wish to know how are you these few years,
Without me,
Are you better?
Are you happier?
Hope someone would tell me the answers that had been a question mark that appear on my mind.

2010-01-02T12:39:00.002+08:00

HAPI NEW YR EVERYONE!

WELCOME TO 2010!

Sori for my late postin..welcome..tagbox kinda dead..nt sure wan to remove it or not..

sianz..

well..today dun need go back to camp..

but tml nite need to book in agn..

is v.bored but no choice..

2more mths to reach my 1 yr in army le..

the time not slow neither fast..

haiz..

brand new yr but the memories stil retain in my heart..

dunno wat to do abt tat pieces of memories..

is painful n miserable..

dunno wan to update wat..only can think of emo posts tat made me think of u..

haiz

2009-12-27T13:56:00.003+08:00

After so long time,
finally get to change my blogskin..
even though is quite simple..

but i dun like too complicated one..cox is hard to edit..
LOL..
tonite dun need to go back to camp cox tml got leave..
wahahaha!! so tml nite den book in..
BOO..lol..
ROFL..

alrite alrite..i m so bored n got nth to do tat y i go choose a blogskin..
tiz blogskin is nice n quite easy to edit..
hahaha!!

anyway..if u changed or removed ur url plz inform me can..cox i need to update as often as i can
hahaha!!
alrite le..today dun reli hav things to update..
=))

2009-12-20T13:53:00.004+08:00

DADDY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION!
19/12/09(SAT)
Ytd book out frm camp ard 12+pm
den it was rainin..lol..waited for the stupid bus 171 waited for exactly 20-25mins..
LOL..reach hm ard 1.15pm..bath,play com..ard 3.30pm out we go..
took bus 147 to bencoolen st there to find my sis frm work..
after tat we slowly walk to cathey there to find ikoi japanese restaurant..started findin foods n orderin drinks..lol..

didnt reli took many pics lor..cox focus on eatin nia..LOL..my dad de bday is on mon(21th) tat y my mum say go advance celebration..
heeee..well...after eatin,we decided to eat dessert but in the end didnt..cox the cashier there got electrical failure..the orders didnt get into it..
so we decided to pay the bill n off we go..
LOL..ate ard $60++ if i not wrong..lol lol...
took bus 147 headed straight hm..reach hm ard 7.45pm..
watch tv,play com lor..den call it a day le..phew..
so tired..but quite worth it to eat..cox i first time go there eat..LOL..
mayb next yr my bday oso go there eat?? lol lol!!!
alrite le..the rest i will let the pics do the talkin..=DD

LAST BUT NOT LEAST!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY! =D

2009-12-15T15:33:00.002+08:00

If time would be able to turn back,
I would put you and me on a beautiful beach with a beautiful sunset,
And let the time stop there forever,
And let the time stores inside to our memories,
And everything might be perfect?

But i know i am lying to myself,
As nothing in this world is perfect,
I am just lying to myself to make myself feel better,
Because i had no idea what to do in order to make myself feel better,
And i am living inside a miserable world,
No matter what i had done,
I cannot see a little sight of light.

Everyday i am telling myself not to think about you,
But the more i am doing that,
The more i am thinking of you,
I am consoling myself not to think about our memories,
Telling myself tomorrow would be another new day,
Everything would be gone,
But everything is nothing but a dream,
A dream that would haunt around me forever,
A dream that would stay down me forever,
I do not know what to do,
I really do not know.

2009-12-06T10:53:00.002+08:00

Wish to know whether are you fine or not,
Without me,
Will you be happier or will be sadder?
Without me,
Will you eat your lunch and dinner?
Will you still miss me like the past?
Or the past would forever remains past?

Really wish i could know the answers for these questions,
So perhaps i won't be missing you as deep as the sea,
Or perhaps is deeper than the sea,
Who knows?
No one.

Perhaps you got him by your side,
You won't even want to know whether i am ok or not,
When i saw that you are sad,
I would feel sad automatically,
When i saw that you are happy,
I would feel sad too,
Because the one who made you happy is not me,
You are smiling,
But the one who saw your smiling and made you smile is not me,
But i am still the one who are holding on our memories,
Even i know you don't even care about our memories,
But that is only thing that i can hold on to for now,
So no matter what,
No matter how heavy the memories are,
I will hold on to it,
Won't ever let go.

2009-11-28T16:05:00.002+08:00

I am missing of your pretty smile,
I am thinking of your hugs,
If we didn't met before,
Didn't kiss before,
Didn't hug each other before,
Didn't even get to know each other at all,
Would it be better?

Love is a thing that everyone is looking for it,
Everyone wanting to hold it tight,
Never want to let it go,
But eventually those would got love will be very few,
Because love eventually will disappear from our life.

When I saw your smile,
I know it's not for me,
When I saw your laughter,
I know it's not for me,
All I wish is to get a happy beginning and a happy ending,
I have a happy beginning with you,
But I do not have a happy ending with you,
The ending is so pain that I almost died,
I tried to drunk myself every night,
Even I am drunk,
It is only for the time being,
When I woke up,
The pain in my heart continues,
No matter how I made myself drunk,
I still can't forget the happy memories that you had given me,
Everyday is a miserable for me,
But no one understand.

When we are together,
I hate to say the word "Goodbye",
I afraid that word would be our last word ever,
But the worst day eventually came,
And I didn't expect it would came so fast,
We still have to be apart,
But not a part anymore,
I am hurt,
And I truly truly hurt.

2009-11-22T18:06:00.002+08:00

爱你却不能从来,
却只能看着你跟他离我远去,
我不知道如何不想你,
还是希望还能在我门第一次见面的地方看到你,
但等了又等,
却只是白等,
但还是希望会有你的出现.

你的出现让我看到了爱,
让我感受到温暖,
但我却没好好珍惜你,
没看中你的好,
好想跟你回到过去,
再回到我门开心的日子里,
继续写我门的故事,
也写我门的未来.

让我的生命有彩虹的是你,
让我哭笑不得的也是你,
让我失去笑容的也是你,
能让我的生命再度发光发热的人却只有你.

2009-11-15T14:10:00.002+08:00

My happiness moment in my life is that i get to hold your hand before,
Get to kiss your lips before,
Get to hug you before,
Get to sing our favourite song together,
Missing you every night is a punishment that heaven choose to give,
Thinking of you every night is a gift that you gave to me,
Never ever regret choosing you in the first place,
If given me a second chance,
I will make the same decision again,
I will still choose to love you again,
And love you deeply each time,
Will only plus my love for you,
Will never ever minus,
In the past will plus,
In the present will times two,
In the future will times twenty,
And the future will only keep adding.

Even though i know that your heart already belongs to someone,
And i can no longer get back your heart,
All i can do is to give you blessings,
Even though it really hurts me a lot,
But i know by forcing you will only make you go further and further,
But no matter what,
I still need to thanks you for giving me a pretty memories,
And it will only remains as memories.
I Love You.

2009-11-07T15:37:00.002+08:00

I know in your heart won't ever have me,
And won't believe what i had said,
Because you had said,
Trusting a person is so difficult,
So i guess you won't ever trust me again,
Ever if it is just a normal friend,
I know is difficult to trust me,
Because i hurt too much of your feelings,
But i really wish you could bring me back to the feeling of the love,
Let me feel what is the feeling of falling in love again,
But i guess it is totally impossible,
Because your heart had already taken by someone.

If your heart is no longer with you,
Even if i had you with me,
I won't feel happy at all,
I really wish i can hold your heart for once again,
And i promise i won't let go,
But i guess you won't even bother about my promises,
Because you must be thinking that i am lying to you,
I am really afraid of living alone,
It is so dark,
I wish i could find you and lead me to lights,
Because i can see no one but you,
The one and only you,
Because only you got the key to my heart,
But all this while,
You are unwilling to open my heart,
That is why i am still staying in a darkness,
I am waiting for you to save me,
Waiting for you to hold me,
Waiting for you to tell me that i still stand 0.1% in your heart,
Waiting for you to listen and sing the song that we used to sing together.

Still holding that piece of small hope,
Hoping miracle would pity me,
But i guess is really difficult because you won't even trust me anymore,
As long as i know that you are still fine,
I am happy,
As long as i know someone would love you,
I am glad,
Because i no longer have the right to love you,
Even if i am dead,
I know you are still in good condition.

2009-10-31T18:21:00.002+08:00

My life is closing from the day you left me,
A day for me is just a year had gone,
I was begging for a chance that might never ever comes true,
I am repenting for my mistakes,
It had become my routine that i had been putting my thoughts on her,
Maybe she had read it,
Maybe she need more time to forgive,
Or maybe she will never ever forgive.

Humans do make mistakes,
Maybe is i hurt too much of her feelings,
Make her hating me so much,
I am guilty and i blame nobody,
This kind of suffering i had is what i deserve,
Live alone and maybe dying alone.

I still couldn't bring myself to forget about you,
I just cannot help myself to stop thinking about you,
No matter what i said could never touched your heart again,
Perhaps i could only pray to God that he could give me another chance to love in my next life,
I only pray that you could be happy without me,
Maybe God could see you smiling after you left me,
That is why God is unwilling to give me another chance to love you in this lifetime,
And i could only keep dreaming that i am still loving you deeply．

2009-10-24T22:04:00.002+08:00

here to post le!
went hougang mall for lunch wif my parents..
den reach hm ard 3+
bath,play com n watch tv
hoho!!
tml bookin in agn..
sianz sianz!

at nite eat western wif my parents..
den play facebook..
seem like quite addicted to facebook le?
=x

as least facebook is more fun den frenster
tat wat i think lor
=xx

dunno wat to post liao leh..
bored leh!
enjoyable day always is v.short de
bored bored bored..
my psp charger spoilt..
haiz..
k le lor.
will post next wk le
=)

2009-10-17T12:48:00.002+08:00

here to post le..
edited the songs in the playlist..
will b bit lag cox i took the codes frm sogou de..
lol..so some songs would b bufferin de..
hav patient n hav a nice day listenin to my songs ba.
lol!

book out on fri evenin..
sianz cox need to book in on sun nite..
=.=

sun shld b off day cox is consider a ph..
=.=
piang eh..
SIANZ LA!!!!
kao!!

dunno wan to do wat..
juz feelin life is reli v.tiring..
haiz..
will update when i got time de..
=)

请你告诉我,爱上你是一个错,别让我失魂落莫昭了魔

2009-10-10T22:01:00.002+08:00

Without you I forgot how to breath,
Without you I cannot focus on anything,
My mind is all about your images,
You said left me is for my own good,
But you never know that is a deep cut to my heart,
I tried my best to make you smile everyday,
But you don't like be happy for whatever i did for you,
Am I too good to you untill you think you don't deserve the love,
Or am I too ugly to suit you that's why you choose to leave me just to prevent those rumors?

I really hope you can be the one to hold my hand again,
What else can i do just to prove that my heart is still beating for you,
Or death is the only way to prove my love for you?
Please tell me,
I really wish to know the answer,
I do not wish to know the answer after i left this world,
So please tell me before i disappear from this world.

2009-10-03T21:46:00.003+08:00

Hmm..
today dun reli hav much things to post..
next wk movin hse le..

today go new hse there do paintin..well..
so tired..reli not easy job..
lol
dunno wan to say wat leh..
hmmhmm..
army life stil not gd..
n my drivin oso not gd..
haiz..

had been askin myself,
m i reli suit to b a driver?
everyday drive le but seem to b like no improvment..
haiz..
or m i too stupid le?
=(

still missin u alot..
y y y y y y???

i m reli v.v.v.v.v.v.tired..
haiz..
but reli dunno wat to do den is correct..
y i do everything like doesnt seem to b correct?
haiz..
juz feel like my life is totally FUCK UP!

2009-09-27T15:25:00.002+08:00

Another year had passed,
I thought by keeping myself busy,
I can forget you,
But all along I had been lying to myself,
I had deleted your photos,
But your photos that had been keeping in my memory,
How do you expect me to forget it?

Days after days had passed,
Keep telling myself that I can forget about you,
But as days goes on,
I still can't do it,
Still missing the nights spending together with you,
How I wish we can sit on the beach to see sunset together again,
I miss that moments so much,
But things that had gone can no longer turned back,
So it had turned into regrets,
Regrets that had been keeping in my heart forever,
And could only blame myself for being useless,
That I couldn't keep you happy when you are by my side,
Perhaps you are happier when you are alone,
But I am not happy when I am alone,
Because I can no longer have you by my side to share my joys and sad,
And I can no longer listen to your joys and sad,
I keep telling myself that since you doesn't belongs to me,
Then I could only let you go,
And wish you all the best,
And promise me that you will be happy forever.

2009-09-26T21:54:00.002+08:00

Alrite..i m back..
lol..
today afternoon bk out frm camp..
go bedok find my mum eat lunch..den go home wash clothes n bath..
den ard 4+ go out wif my parents n go tampines de courts c furnitures..
after tat den go giant there de foodcourt eat dinner..
eat le den go back to courts cox got some paperwork havent done..
hmm..den ard 8+ go take bus27 go hm le..
yawn..
so tired..mayb gonna slp early..
tml nite bookin in agn.

SIANZ!!!

k le..nth much to say le.

Still missing you every days and nights,
Knowing you that already forgotten my presence,
But still choose to put you in my heart,
And remembered the words you had told me,
"You are always craved deep in my heart"
This is what you told me,
But i guess these words are already gone long ago,
Sigh..

2009-09-21T17:46:00.003+08:00

sianz sianz..
goin back to camp in few hrs time..
haiz..
2 n half days so fast jiu gone le
=((

movin hse in 2 wks time..
wonderin can take leave to help my parents or not..
cox my sis goin to holidays v.soon..my daddy oso dunno can take leave or not..
so if my mummy do alone..afraid she couldnt cope wif it..
haiz..

btw..anybody wan to help me move hse??
lol!!

cox my sis will b callin her frenz to help too..
so i think if can call more ppl den would b beta..LOL
anybody anybody??
=xx

if u wan,can drop me a tag..=DD
hao le..today whole day stayin at hm..so goin to bath den prepare to go out le.
haiz..
boring days agn comin le..
=(((

hopefully faster comes sat..
LOL..
alrite..all rem to tag tag tag me kk
=D

2009-09-20T22:38:00.002+08:00

Ps to readers..
so many days didnt blog..
psps..

i try to blog it out as much as possible kk
=))

19Sept..

HAPPY BDAY to my MUMMY!
=DD
it was her bday..so after i bk out frm camp..i go bedok pei her eat eat..
den go bedok walk walk a while jiu go hm le..
after i go hm bath,wash clothes..
den ard 4+ go out wif my daddy go compass point to find my mummy to go out eat dinner..
decided to go tampines ave 3 blk 800+ eat..
ordered asam fish,salad prawn,hong kong(esp for my mummy de..cox she is bday gal..=D),mix vege..
eat till ard 7+ den slowly go for a short walk..den headed hm..
hm sweet hm abt 9+ ba..
=D

20Sept

hmmhmm..wat to blog abt today leh..
well..mornin wake up..den accompany my mum go eat breakfast..den accompany her to busstop to take bus 88..
after tat den i headed hm to play psp..
play till ard 11+,wash tv,play com..till 1+ go bath n prepare to go out..
go out wif my daddy n mummy to eat agn..LOL..every wk come back hm dun need to scared no things to eat..=xx
today went to bugis..
there is freakin crowded de..bloody ppl kip standin there dun move..thot tat they r v.small size? =.=
went bugis street there de coffee conniseur to eat..dun reli noe how to spell..
is tcc..lol lol..my sis is workin in bugis..but not tat branch tat we went to eat..
lol..juz ordered 2 coffee,2 cakes n 1 more cheesy stuff which i dunno the name..lol
in the end the bill is 49.20
LOL..
lucky my sis got giv some "scratch n win" card..den got won 20bucks voucher..so decided to go there eat..if not oso wasted..hahaha!!
but tell u wat..mi n my dad took exactly 10-15mins to decide wat to eat after seein the menu..cox we totally r lost as we didnt go there eat b4..n mostly the foods we dun reli noe how to eat? rofl...
okok..after eatin..decide to go walk walk in bugis junction shoppin mall..walk walk walk.
till ard 4+ den go food court eat a bit stuff den go bugis street there wait for bus 80..
den take bus80 to hougang mall..go ntuc buy some biscuits for me to brin to camp tml..
boring!!! after tat..walked hm frm hougang mall..
hm sweet hm ard 7+..
play psp,watch tv,play com..
okok..guess tat all for today ba..

ps..no pics..=xx
will try to upload it some other days..do look forward for tat day k
lol

2009-09-12T19:57:00.002+08:00

You are still the love in my heart,
My life had changed because of you,
My heart beat because of you,
My tears dropped because of you,
I can't sleep at night is because of you.

I could only keep staring at the sky to look for you,
Hopefully i can see you in the sky,
Do you know someone had been crying for you all along?
I don't have the courage to walk the path alone,
When I hug you,
I saw the future,
When I had choose to leave you,
My future had been shadowed by darkness.

Please forgive me for being unmature,
Didn't turn back the clock,
But i scared is too late to say it out,
So i had to let you go and search for your happiness,
A faraway from me will always give you my blessing forever.

2009-09-06T15:39:00.002+08:00

Why do you choose to leave me when i am totally commited on you?
Why do you choose to hurt me when i am loving you the most?
I can't touch your heart just like i can't touch the sky,
I can't feel your soul just like i can't feel the air,
I can't see your heart just like i can't see the deepness of the sea,
I can't hear your voice just like i can't hear the waves of the sea,
I can't hold your hand just like i can't hold the little star in the sky.

I am the one who can't forget the past,
I am the one who choose to hurt you,
I am the one who choose to love you deeply,
And i am also the one who are missing you deeply now.

I know you don't want anything,
Maybe you only want him in your heart,
But do you know that a heart had been beating for you all along,
And waiting for you to hear it?
My love wish to touched your heart in the past,
But you had him in your heart,
Does he really still stayed in your heart?
Please tell me,
Don't be afraid to hurt me,
Because from the moment you left me,
You had already hurt me deeply.

2009-09-05T21:51:00.003+08:00

好想在我闭上眼之前说我爱你,
不能再陪你,
看美丽的日出,
但你答应过我,
你会好好活下去,
我会把回忆带到一个没人能给的地方,
再见了,我的爱.

爱要怎么说出口,
如过能将你拥有,
我想我不会那么难过,
是你跟我说放下爱就会走远,
但我却走不到未来,
我还有千言万语想要跟你说,
但你却已离我远去,
好想再回到从前,
再一次拥有你最美的灵魂,
没有你的爱,
我的世界好空虚.

2009-08-30T16:05:00.002+08:00

Wish to ask you one question,
You still love me?
But i am afraid to know the truth,
Even though i know the truth is always hurtful,
I really miss you a lot,
Every night hoping to get your message,
But eventually i still didn't manage to get it.

Wish you could be my girl again,
And hold your little hand like i hold it before,
Kiss your lips like i did before and will be more then willing to kiss it longer,
Hug you like i didn't used to hug you before,
Truly regretted for what i had done in the past,
Hoping we can go out like the past,
Going everywhere around the world like others didn't manage to do it,
Going to see the prettiest sunrise and sunset,
Go to see the prettiest sea scenery like you didn't see before.

2009-08-23T14:27:00.002+08:00

I don't want your promises,
I only want your love,
A love that can love me as long as possible,
You can say me selfish,
But which guy don't wish to get the love from the girl he love?

Write a letter to me,
Take it as a dream,
To tell me what is your feeling when you leave my side,
Do you have tears more or you have laughters more when you are with me?

I tried and tried to put your love away,
And made myself not to think about your love,
But no matter how hard i tried,
Your love eventually stayed there,
My heart cries every night,
Still missing you every moment,
Couldn't stop thinking of you.

2009-08-16T13:56:00.003+08:00

In one day you brought me to heaven,
In the next day,
You brought me straight to hell,
Just because of your words,
Everything that regarding me had been gone to hell,
I still don't know why i still cannot forget you,
It seem really hard to forget you,
Perhaps the memories that you gave is really so cherishable untill i don't wish to forget it.

You had your love now,
You forgotten about me,
You had forgotten about our love and memories that we used to have,
Untill now,
Sometimes I will go to the places that we used to go,
Refresh the moments,
And my heart cried,
The places was still there,
But our love had gone,
I really hope you could return to my side,
Because i still miss you days and nights,
I could even dream of you in the middle of the night,
Just hoping i could hold you tight and can have a sense of your smell,
I am still blaming myself for not cherishing you when you are by my side,
Making it a regret that i could not make it up anymore.

When you need someone to be by your side,
You had him to be with you,
But when i need someone to be by my side,
I need you to be with me,
But you are not there,
You are not there to share my downs and tears,
I could only spend the time alone sitting in a corner and thinking of you secretly,
And as time goes by,
I could only cried silently in a corner.

2009-08-08T22:20:00.002+08:00

我还是好想你,
可是一切都不能改变了,
我为你付出眼泪流无数,
你何必假装不在乎,
如果真心不能够跟你说清楚,
难道我就这样认输?

我为你付出我一个人哭,
只要你过得很幸福,
如果真心还是不能够说清楚,
当泪流干以后我认输.

难道我曾爱过你的心,
得到只是伤心吗?

有谁看的出我的伤,
有谁看的出我的痛,
又有谁看的出我的心正在想你呢?

当我要放掉你的手,
我的心真的很痛,
眼泪也开始从我的眼落下了,
明天你将会离我很远,
但我还是会把你种在我的心中.

2009-08-01T20:47:00.002+08:00

我问天,我问地,
我已经感动天,感动地,
为何就是感动不了你?

我一步一步的找寻,
可是我找不到你的爱,
好想念我门的过去,
你是我的今生的爱,
又有谁能明白?

为了你,我甘愿等待,
也没人肯从黑暗的洞里救我.
每天只能傻傻的等你,
笨笨的想你,
没有你的日子真的好煎熬,
如过放你走能够对你好,
我都会做到.

如过忽冷忽熱的温柔是你的理由,
那么我宁愿回到一个人生活,
一个心时时刻刻都在等你回来,
你跟他是否已经有了真感情,
请告诉我,
别怕我伤心.

2009-07-28T22:14:00.002+08:00

Hohoho..
tiz is my last post b4 i go on course tml le..
so bored..totally dun feel like goin..
=((

i miss my mummy so much..
haiz..
n i miss all my online frenz too..
=)

so all muz continue to help keep my blog active wor..
thx ar..tiz comin sat i can book out..i will reply all tags n post more de..
=))

all muz take gd care n dun fall sick wor ar!!
=D

all miss me de hua can sms me..my hp is stil on 24/7 standby..hahaha!!
hao le..i goin to slp le..
tml mornin stil need to wake up early le..
haiz..
nite all!!

2009-07-26T13:49:00.003+08:00

我放不过我知己，所以转一圈回到原地，
眼泪是一种提醒，我还爱你是否能让一切归零，

好让我能过爱你多一遍。都是我不好，
一心想给你最好的爱，但到最后什么都不能给，
让你只得到伤心，可是我的日记还是想念着你的名，
希望能够有你陪我，如果这世界能有少一点怨恨，少一点仇人，少一点无聊，
多一点抱荣，多一点你的爱，多一点好朋友，多一点一切的一切就好了。

你是否还知道我的心每天都在为你流泪，真的很可望一个能依靠的肩旁，
但一天一天的过，我才发现，你一天一天离我越来越远，
越想握住你的手，我越是握不住，想你的心是一天比一天的重，
但我还是放不下你。

我伤你伤的太过深，所以你不再相信我的话，在你最难过的时候，
给你安慰的不是我，借你肩旁靠的人不会是我，
我的心真的很痛，当你的心痛时，你有他能陪你，
我心痛时又有谁在我身边陪我度过最难过的一关呢？

对不起，让你对我的撤地的失望，不能给你一个美好的回忆，希望他能代替我好好的爱你，给你一个难以忘记的回忆，希望能看到你每天好好的笑着过日子。

在远方的你，是否能感觉到有人还在默默的为你祈祷呢？
我每天都在过没有意思的生活，觉的生活是淡的无味，
但我又能做什么呢？只希望如果有一天，我已不在这史上，
希望你能把我放在你心里最深的地方，好让我过的有安全感。

我每天看着人来人往，好希望能看到你的脸，
但几百万的人，我却看不到你的脸，
我真的无法忘记你，我还是好想你，
有你，我就好像有了全世界，
失去你，我得到全世界也淡的没味道。

想着你微笑的脸，想念只会越陷越深，
请不要忘了我，如果我让你太烦感，
那就提早忘了我，因为我不想从烦感变的深深的爱。

我知道你只是渴望你双翅膀让你飞翔，
及然翅膀已在你身上，那就好好的飞翔吧，
如果有一天，你决定了你要降落的地点，
我肯定会在你降落的地点默默的等待你。

At first i thought i can stop myself from crying, But when i miss you too much,
My tears eventually cannot control itself, And i am so hurt,
Why i wish to have someone there for me, Eventually there is no one for me,
Why i wish to have someone for me to cry on, Eventually there is no shoulder for me to cry on.

I am so hurt and pain now, Who is there to understand the pain that i had?
Who is there to understand the suffers that i had in my heart?
Who is there to listen to my rubbish when i needed someone to be my listener?
Who is there to lend me a shoulder when i needed something to lean on?
I guess nothing and no one is there for me.

I am sorry, When i promised you i won't cry,
It is all fake,Tears eventually dripped down from my eyes,
No one knows my pains,No one knows my tears, No one knows my heart is bleeding,
No one knows i am dying.

Why others could get so called "EverLasting Love", But i don't get to see it,
When i didn't get to see it,I won't be able to sense it,When i didn't be able to sense it,
I will die due to over-bleeding, Trust me,Over-bleeding won't last long,
It will be over soon,When you will no longer see a lonely boy in this world,
Talking about rubbish things.

Why I love you,
I had to release you,
To give you back your freedom,
Why no one is there for me,
When i need a shoulder to cry on,
Because i am missing you badly,
That i cried every night before i sleep.

Even when i sleeping,
My mind is still thinking of your pretty images,
And your voice that been talking to me,
But your voice had kept telling me to forget you,
Telling me that you are not worth it to be in my dream,
If you think you are not worth it to be in my dream,
Then no one is no longer worth it to be in my dream anymore.
I only want you to be in my mind,
I wish you are always there for me,
Whenever i need a helping hand,
You would be the first to reach there,
Whenever i need a shoulder to lean on,
You would be the first to be there,
Whenever i need a listening ear,
You would be there to listen to my rubbish even by keeping quiet,
When you are by my side,
I would feel secure,
When you are by my side,
I felt that i had the whole world in my hand,
Perhaps you had choosen the right choose by leaving my side,
To make the entire world to be in your hand.

Now you had the whole world in your hand,
But my world had been destroyed by you,
Just becsause of your words,
It are just like a sharpen knife,
Goes straight into my heart,
And you are so heartless,
Left me bleeding non stop,
And my heart had been broken into small pieces,
So my heart had prounced DEAD.

你走了，你也把我的幸福给带走了，
让我一辈子再也找不到我的幸福，我却只能给你远远的祝福，
爱你却要放你走。

开心是什么，我不知道，
开朗是什么，我不知道，
我只知道什么是黑暗，什么是寂寞，
我们曾经还说要一起看星星，永远谁都不可以离开谁的，
但这个愿望在也不实现了，要一起看的日出和日落，
我们也不能在一起看了，孤单的我还是在默默的等你回来。

美丽的梦何时才能出现？我何时又能见到美丽的你？
为什么爱你又要放弃你？
只想跟你说，你这爱情傻瓜到现在还在等你回来。

爱你的心没人明白，想你的心没人知道，
对你的思念是一天比一天深，想起有人跟我斗嘴，
想起有人跟我有说有笑，想起有人会找我发泄的时候，
我是多么想念那个时刻。我每天都在想，
我为何不会学如何去爱你，我为何要选择伤害你，
失去你之后才想要挽回一切，但才知道你己不属于我了，
我想跟你说声，对不起。

我知道我伤你太过深，所以你不能再相信我的话，
所以希望你能找到比我更爱你的人，我在这里，
忠心的祝福你，希望你能比从前开心。

Thx all for concern..my fever is gone le..but stil got a spittin headache n a badly coughin..
All oso rem to drink more water kk..dun fall sick le..=)

2009-07-24T11:03:00.002+08:00

Haiz..
stupid fever attacked me agn
haiz..

havin fcukin cough n flu..
wed stil got course to go..
now head freakin pain..

haiz..
slept whole nite last nite..
but wake up every few hrs..cox head v.pain..v.diff to slp..
haiz..

ate medi a while ago..
but head stil v.pain..
the more i slp the more pain my head will hav..
sound stupid hor?

haiz..
dun look forward for my upcomin course..
dunno y..dun ask me y too..

i now v.xin ku..feel like dyin le..
=((

2009-07-22T21:57:00.002+08:00

I really hope that our love would never faded,
But i know you can no longer trust a guy like me in your life again,
Why i must choose to hurt you when u treated me so good,
I really miss your hugs very much,
But i don't know what to do to make you treat me like a normal friend,
A friend that you can find and chat happily.

Everything is my fault,
I do not know how to cherish you when God gave a gift to me,
If everything could change or not God give me another chance to love you,i swear i would love you more then the past,
But i know you won't trust my words again,
As i hurt you with my words before,
Perhaps i should learn how to let you go,
And learn how to put your unforgettable poision away from my body,
My heart is so pain,
Awaiting for your message,
Awaiting for your care and concern,
But you will never ever gave it.

I had been coughing for almost a week,
And still coughing badly nowadays,
Maybe it had lead to lung cancer already or what,
No one knows,
No one cares anyway,
I was wondering when you will care about me,
Even it was just a short concern,
As short as 5 seconds,
I would be happy,
Because as least i know your heart stil got me as your friend,
But i know even you get to choose to care as friend,
I guess i won't be in your list,
Because i am a devil in your heart,
But you are a angel in my heart,
Forever a lovable angel in my heart,
When can i get your love?
When can i get your care?
Everything that had past,
I could only say sorry to you,
And i love you.

2009-07-21T21:43:00.001+08:00

已经忘记了到底等待了多久你还没把那句话说出口
街上的情侣手牵着手我们只有沉默从朋友到恋人究竟多少步骤你永远只会静静看着我
期待着某天会萌芽结果会不会就这样落空

我们是好朋友还只是好朋友但朋友的线我们早跨过脑海里头总是充满你的笑容
我知道你也有同样感受
我们是好朋友还只是好朋友如果没勇气会这样错过一句话就够其他都别多说
我等着你开口说爱我

从朋友到恋人究竟多少步骤你永远只会静静看着我期待着某天会萌芽结果会不会就这样落空我们是好朋友还只是好朋友但朋友的线我们早跨过脑海里头总是充满你的笑容
我知道你也有同样感受
我们是好朋友还只是好朋友如果没勇气会这样错过一句话就够其他都别多说
我等着你开口说爱我

多少寂寞(多少寂寞)因为有你的陪伴而度过不要想的太多想想曾有的不该没把握唔耶
我们是好朋友还只是好朋友在这个位置等待了多久静静守着彼此我们都能够接受为
何要留下为什么
我们是好朋友还只是好朋友如果没勇气会这样错过一句话就够其他都别多说我等着你开口说爱我
说你爱我

2009-07-19T13:33:00.005+08:00

如果我说我还是深深的爱着你,你还会给我一个爱你的机会吗?
如果你问我为何还会爱着你,我只能说我对你的感情还没有散掉,
你笑着对我说我很傻,我哭着对你说,我傻因为我还是很爱你,
我很希望能够再牵着你温柔的手,因为它能陪我入睡,
你教我如何爱上你,但你却没教我如何忘记你,
你教我如何进入一段爱情,却狠心的丢弃我一个人在黑暗的洞里.

吻你的唇让我知道我的明天会有人陪我一起度过,拉你的手让我知道我的一生已经完完全全交给你了,
我的明天就只有你能陪我一起过,你能让我跟你一起走进属于我门的明天吗?

2009-07-15T22:37:00.002+08:00

I suddenly miss you so much,
Thinking of our pretty moments,
How i wish i can ask you out again to have a nice talk,
But i guess you won't ever trust a guy like me again,
A guy would only know how to hurt you the most when you started to trust him the most,
I know you can no longer trust mywords,
But i still want to say,
The days and seconds being together with you is my happiest moments in my entire life,
Even though the days are short,
But the memories are beautiful,
*Sigh*

I really regret letting you down in the first place,
I really wish to have you back to my side,
But everything would be totally impossible.. =(

2009-07-11T11:50:00.002+08:00

Today dun reli hav things to do at hm..
so bored..

next wk i think we goin to do a project on those rules on drivin..
i oso duno wtf is tat..tat officer wan us to write dunno wat the shyt on regardin on the drivin thingy..
=.=

dunno wtf is tat la..knn..
den i juz uploaded some songs..but got new n some old ones..
plz help to support by listenin my songs n write some comments if possible..

=D

webbie is www.imeem.com/ratedrko
even if u didnt write comments,can oso help to promote lor..=D
thx alot..=DD

2009-07-10T20:47:00.002+08:00

庾澄庆-静静的
作词:林唯　作曲：梁介洋　

空气里躲着什么有点浪漫的心动我偷偷看你你也偷偷看我
世界上多了什么好像变得很不同站在你身边这一切都好宽阔

我还在等着你静静的爱我只要有你陪我　静静的就足够你也在等着我静静的温柔
就这样手牵手静静的看着天空

心里面藏着什么你只想要让我懂原来我的梦也就是你的梦
纸条上写了什么我好想要听你说让字字句句充满我们的笑容

我还在等着你静静的爱我只要有你陪我　静静的就足够你也在等着我　静静的温柔
就这样手牵手　静静的看着天空

永远要记得那天彼此许下的承诺瞬间点亮的火花是我们的拥有
我还在等着你静静的爱我只要有你陪我静静的就足够你也在等着我静静的温柔
就这样手牵手静静的看着天空
静静的手牵手是最简单的梦

2009-07-04T12:55:00.003+08:00

S.H.E - 记得要忘记

在就要轉身前忽然又想起你相遇的那一天漾著微笑的你那個微笑還是很美麗
可惜那個人常常要讓人哭泣太耀眼的城市不適合看星星就如同你的心不適合談安定
謝謝你讓我傷過心學會愛情並非執迷人改變不了改變不了的事情

記得要忘記忘記我提醒自己你已經是人海中的一個背影
長長時光我應該要有新的回憶

人無法決定會為誰動心但至少可以決定放不放棄我承認我還是會愛著你
但我將永不再觸碰這記憶

記得要忘記忘記經過我的你畢竟只是很偶然的那種相遇不會不容易
我有一輩子足夠用來忘記

人無法決定會為誰動心但至少可以決定放不放棄我承認我還是會愛著你
但我將永不再觸碰這記憶

記得要忘記忘記我提醒自己你已經是人海中的一個背影
長長時光我應該要有新的回憶

記得要忘記忘記經過我的你畢竟只是很偶然的那種相遇不會不容易
我有一輩子足夠用來忘記
我還有一輩子可以用來努力我一定會忘記你

2009-06-27T11:28:00.002+08:00

Alrite..
i m here to post..

hmmhmm..
i now being posted to my camp de driver..
now only havin lesson talks lor..
few wks later den start driving course..
when drivin course start..only sat afternoon den can book out..sun nite muz book in..
sianz..somemore the training camp is at sembawang camp..=((

say truthfully..i dun hav confidence lor..cox will b drivin a tunnel..
so is damn difficult to control as well as reverse..
u cannot hav a single mistake..if not u will fail the whole course..
n oso muz hav the paper test..haiz..paper test i oso no confidence..so ask me how to go take the driving test leh???

sianz..how how?? =.=
can get a free license i noe is gd la..so next time go out dun need test agn..
but i totally no confidence leh..HOW??!!

haiz..CR go that camp train so long le..till now havent go back to selarang camp..
i think the test is reli difficult ba..so i dunno how to make it lor..
2mths training say fast not fast,say slow not slow.
haiz..but how to survive it is another question le..
sianz..

how to gain confidence leh?
who can teach me??
haiz..

later goin out wif my mum to parkway de giant walk walk..
sianz sianz..

tiz few days i didnt msg u..sori..
cox i tiz few days reach hm v.tired le..
so didnt msg u..hope u dun angry..
i everyday need to wake up at 5..cox i scared i would b late..so no choice..
but i will try my best to msg u when i get on the bus le..
anyway..i noe ur exams comin le..
hao hao jy in ur exams ba..
do ur best jiu hao..dun force urself too much..
i will supportin u n prayin for u tat u will do well de..
=))

我不知道怎么做才能让你知道我爱你,
所以我只能默默的为你祈祷,
希望你做什么都能顺顺利利..

2009-06-20T22:00:00.002+08:00

你给我爱的感觉但你却不知道我爱的就是你,
所谓的远在天边近在眼前,
我的爱就是你,
是你让我从新认识爱情,
虽然你不知道给我从新认识爱情的人是你,
但我会默默的守护着你,
默默的爱你,
我就开心了．

我没见过你,
但我已经在想你了,
很希望也很期待能够有一天跟你一起出去,
很想你,
好想你,
忘不了你对我说的每一句话,
想念你的每一个微笑,
我很想跟你一起看美丽的日出,
然后轻轻在你耳边说我爱你.

2009-06-19T21:32:00.002+08:00

I decide to learn to love a person again,
So i must learn how to let you go,
I know the process would be tough,
But I believe if got determination,
Nothing is impossible.

Gonna say goodbye to my sleepless nights,
Say goodbye to my tears that had been dropping for you,
Say goodbye to my miserable nights towards you,
Say goodbye to my darkness world,
Say hello to my brand new bright world,
Say hello to my brand new smile that i had for future,
Say hello to everything that i had for the brightness world!!

I finally get to know what is a feeling to fall in love for someone,
Maybe i held everything too tight in the past,
That is the reason i couldn't feel anything that is around me,
But now,
I could feel the cold wind blows,
Just like the wind of the love blows,
It was so cooling,
I gonna enjoy the wind while it is still there,
I gonna cherish everything I can while I am still alive,
I gonna learn how to love you and give you all my love,
I gonna cherish every minute,every second spent with you
And make you feel like the happiest as well as a luckiest princess in this world,
Thanks for giving me that feeling again,
Because I thought that i can never ever found that feeling again,
But your encouragments and your words make my day bright once again,
For that,
I would learn to give you all my best of the best.

2009-06-17T13:36:00.002+08:00

I was missing you so much,
Untill i couldn't fall asleep at night,
So i decide to stare into the sky to look out for the stars,
The stars resembled your face,
I held a picture of you and stare hard into the stars,
After a while i fall asleep with your picture in my arms,
I am using it as a blanket,
And it felt so warm to me.

In the morning,
The sun rise,
I saw your face in the sky,
Thinking of the joys and laughter that you had brought to me in the past,
You had bought a lot of sunlight into my world,
But when you are gone,
Everything had gone darken for me,
Whatever i am doing,
I saw your face and soul around me.

I am still missing you very much,
How do you expect me to do then you will be willing to return to my side,
Our past didn't even touched your heart before or our past is no longer worth it for you to think about it?
Maybe you don't even care about our past since you think that this is no longer important to you,
But it would be very important to me because it holds a memory and a past of us,
The joys,
Laughters,
Pictures that we took,
Songs that we sang together,
Hands that we held together,
Lips that we kissed together,
Everything had still held inside deeply and bottom of my heart,
I just hope you could make a turn back to the place that we first met,
But i know you don't even remember what is it now,
I am so disappointed in everything that i had for this relationship,
Because no matter what i do,
This relationship can no longer bear any fruit,
I am so sad,
That you don't hold a part of my memory in your heart,
I am so angry,
That you don't a hold a part of our relationship because i didn't even manage to give you a happy relationship.
For everything,
I only had myself to blame.

2009-06-14T17:36:00.003+08:00

Why wind couldn't blow away my love for you?
Why wind couldn't blow away my heart,
So I won't have any chance to feel sad when you left me,
I really felt very hurt when you said you are going to leave my side,
But i knew you will never ever change your decision from the moment you said it,
So i got no choice but to let you go,
It truly hurts me.

Untill now,
I think you still don't understand my love for you,
I do not expect any return from you,
What I wish is I can get attention from you,
Just a slight attention would make my day happy,
But you just not willing to give,
It makes me hurts a lot,
And you are not there to concern me,
It makes my day down like hell.

Have you ever loved me truly before?
I really wish I could know the answer that had been keeping in your heart,
Because in the past,
I could only give you all my best love,
But i had never knew what is your answer that had been keeping in your heart,
Is it that love could really be taking up and putting down easily?

2009-06-13T13:22:00.002+08:00

Why do I keep thinking that our love would appear some kind of miracle?
I really do not know what is exactly on your mind,
Making both of us drifting such a big gap between us,
I do want to ask you what is exactly happened to us,
But i do not want to know the truth because i know the truth is always hurts,
I know i can't run away from the truth eventually,
But i do not want to face the truth alone,
I want to face the truth with you,
But everything that i want is totally impossible for me.

The more i would want to know what are you thinking,
The more i couldn't guess what is exactly on your mind,
The only thing i could do,
Is to see you drifting further and further from my sight,
What i hope is the wind could bring back your soul to my side,
As least when i felt cold in the middle of the night,
Something that belongs to you are by my side,
I would felt warm.

I hope i could saw your face in the sky,
So i could draw your cute and sweet face by using the stars,
And it could help me fall asleep when i couldn't fall asleep,
Because your cute and sweet face could console my soul to sleep,
And my mind and heart would even smile when falling asleep,
Because i know your face had been there to keep me asleep through out the night,
And i had your cute and sweet face to be my blanket,
So i do not need to be afraid of colds,
Because i know you do not want me to fall sick,
So you will be there for me.

But from the day you said those words,
You had broke my soul into pieces,
I couldn't fall asleep at night,
It was so cold,
The sky was so dark,
That I keep staring in the sky,
Hoping something would appear,
But I waited and waited,
Nothing comes out,
From the night to the day,
I had been waiting for something,
That i know that would never ever appear in my entire life,
And that is YOU.

2009-06-11T00:23:00.006+08:00

Today is my grandpa 7th year death anniversary..
haiz..7 yrs so fast pass le..
i stil miss him so much..
miss the words tat he used to console me..
haiz..

sad sad..
wat to do leh??
they all had their POP parade last nite..
they r now "private" but i m stil a recruit..
hoho..gd for them..

nth abt tat..juz feelin a bit down..
nvm..guess would b fine after a while ba..
i walked my 24km route march..but i stil cannot pass out
eventually stil muz accept the fact tat i m stil a recruit..

mayb i stil think hapi..cox i dun need to recourse BMT
so it might b a gd thing to me??
mayb?? i oso dunno..
sianz sianz.
walked 24km le..leg so pain..leg got blisters..walk oso pain..
haiz...
juz hope future road would b easier for me since i completed 3mths of trainin..
truly hope so lor..
i noe it had been quite long since i posted pics le..
sori..i too lazy to post le..i noe my post is boring..
but i reli lazy to post pics..mayb will do it when i got free time ba..

2009-06-07T11:46:00.002+08:00

sianz sianz..
y everyday oso so sianz de..
few more days to POP le..
all ppl r lookin forward..but i m not..
y?? cox i m not takin part in the parade..
haiz..

the reason is cox i got go tekong..but i didnt go live shooting..didnt pass my fitness test..
so my sergent say i cannot pass out..
i guess i would b stayin in tat freakin camp lor??
sianz..

if need to repeat my BMT den would b more sianz..cox need to repeat another 3mths..
haiz!!!

c all ppl can pass out..yet i m envyin at a corner..
haiz..so sianz..

hopefully can post to the storeman lor..beta den repeatin my BMT..but i scared i need to repeat my 3mths BMT cox i fail my fitness test..
haiz..

SCARED LEH!!! HOW!!!
haiz..i m so useless..
=((

freakin moodless now..
anybody is there to console me?
haiz..

2009-05-31T20:20:00.002+08:00

Sianz!!!
Tiz weekend is CONFIRM not a gd weekend for me!

COX I M HAVING A FEVER!
haiz...
somemore my fever is only at nite hav..
afternoon stil k..only at nite will hav fever..
haiz..

inside camp oso like tat..the medi only giv me 2 freakin panadol to eat..
haiz..
now my head is stil freakin pain!
plus got 5-6 medi to eat..given by hospital de doc..
can eat till vomit lor..all is pills lai de..n i hav difficulty shallowin pills..
sounds funny hor??
i oso dunno y..i frm young jiu hav difficulty eatin pills..
so i had to force myself to eat for my mum de sake lor

but tml nite if np le den need to book in to camp le..
sianz..
HOW!! my head is stil v.pain!!!
=((

2009-05-24T16:17:00.002+08:00

hmmhmm..
last post b4 goin back to camp..
boring!
tml mon le..
sianz..

stil got fieldpack inspection..
=.=
fri stil got route march..sat stil need stay back for stupid RT
=.=

haiz..my back n leg stil v.pain..
haiz..but book in stil need to wear tat fcukin boots..
haiz.......

reli dun feel like goin back to tat fcukin camp man..
i would wish to stay at hm!!!
=((

need to wait till next sat den can go hm le..den sun stil need to book in agn
haiz..
i hate tat fcukin SOC man!!!
how!!! omfg..

ns life is DAMN FCUKIN BORING!!!
=.=

sianz sianz sianz

2009-05-23T11:46:00.002+08:00

Hohoho!!!
Hi readers!!

Spent 2wks at tekong...
is reli quite xiong n bored there..
cox most of the time there got no water..
meanin no water to brush teeth or bath..
so sometime muz pour some powder den go to slp..

so tiring n boring there..
juz hope after POP i wont b stayin there..
hope ba..
stil got ard 3more wks to POP le..
but all will come tgt de..
firstly would b my SOC(Standard Obstacles Course) test..need to clear it within 10mins..which got total of 11-12 obstacles.. i think is impossible..cox i stucked on the first obstacle le..
secondly would b my last IPPT b4 POP..which might b impossible cox i stuck on my 2.4 too..
lastly is my 24km route march at ECP..
for those dunno wat is POP..POP = Passing Out Parade..

which mean on tat day,will determine who will b stayin n who will b leavin for another camp..
tat y i lookin forward on tat day..
hohoho!!!

jialat le...so many things comin at one time
=.=!!

damn stress sia..
somemore next wk stil got 16km route march..
sian de is we need to slp on 7pm n wake up 2am to prepare for tat route march!

man!!! tell me how to slp on 7pm??
=.=
so tiring lor..
i bet tat no one is able to slp on 7pm de..
hohohoho!!!!
when wil tiz end..=(((
route march i dun wan to fall out..cox if fall out will kena remidial trainin juz to do tat route march..
sianz!!!!

yawn..
faster POP!!!!
i wan to get out of tat fcukin camp!!!
pray for me!!!
hohohoho!!!

2009-05-09T12:11:00.002+08:00

erm erm..
i dun look forward for tiz comin mon de tekong trip
=(((

but stil need to go beach rd buy things tat needed for tat trip de.
sianz..

dun wan to go oso cannot
sob..
dun feel like goin..
haiz..

but stil got 12km route march to go..
den before my passing out parade..stil got 24km route march to walk at east coast..
hohoho!!!

ytd walk 8km route my shoulders n legs r breakin le..
wonder how to survive the upcoming route marches..
=(((

later goin out wif my mum to help her celebrate mother's day..
hohoho..
but stil dunno wan to buy wat for her leh..
sibei sian la!!!!

need to buy tiz,pack there,do tiz,do tat..
=((

so tired of ns le..
sianzz sianz sianz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-05-05T13:32:00.002+08:00

I know our feelings and love had faded,
And your heart only have hates on me,
Actually,my happiest moments in my entire life,
Is been together with you,
Even though we had lots of arguments,
But after each argument,our love grown stronger,
Remembered the moment that we spend the entire afternoon at a playground chatting happily,
That is the moment that i couldn't forget,
Every time i passed by that playground that we used to have fun with,
My tears is feeling like dropping,
You had never fail to come find me near my house,
You are a good girlfriend to me but i don't think i am a good boyfriend to you,
Because i didn't even take the effort to go find you near your house or workplace,
I still remember the english song that you love the most,
"Nothing is gonna change my love for you",
Until now,i am still listening to this song,
Even though everything had changed,
But for your info,
My love for you had never ever changed.

You might had forgotten me,
But i am still remembering you,
Forever and ever.

If there is really a thing called "Next Life",
I really hope i still can met you and fall in love with you again,
One thing you can be sure of,
Nothing is gonna change my love for you,
No matter what you had became,
I will still love you with my heart and soul,
I had never ever know what is love until i met you,
Love is something that you can never ever see it or feel it,
Love is something that you gave as it goes and doesn't expect any returns,
Love is something you can really die for when you wish to get for what you really wants,
It comes and goes as it likes,
Just like a cold wind blows,
If your love is a poison,
Then i guess i am addicted to your poisonous love,
A love that is so deep inside my heart that i couldn't even forget for a second,
Everything is gone,
But i stil have something to tell you deep inside my heart,
And that is a sentence with eight letters words but only with one meaning and is only meant for you,

I Love You.

2009-05-04T16:00:00.002+08:00

AFTERNOON Readers!
All muz wondering y i can online rite??
lol..
cox i last nite didn't book in to camp..
i go c doc..den doc giv me 3days mc till tml nite..
=))

anyway..i wan to go out of cannot go out..
cox they will call my hm n spot check c whether i at hm or not.
=.=

even at hm oslo no freedom..watch..
so bored..
my mum today no work..that can go out with herde..
but scared later they call to hm den later cannot find me den tho i m playin a prank with them..
den tml nite go back sure kena Kan one..
=.=

sibei sian la..
stupid army camp la.
piang eh..
sian sian sian..

do Wat,go where oso sian!
yawn..
next wk going tekong le..i go with them oso dunno need to do wat..
cox i m excuse with explosives n grenades..den they say the one n only grenade throwin is at tekong..den i go there oso cannot throw..
tat y i had been wonderin..since i cannot do..den y i muz go..=.=

somemore go there is one whole wk de..one wk go back camp le stil muz resume trainin..
=.=!!!
i think tekong there stil got alot of route marches stil need to go..
tat y they say i muz go
wa..sianz!!!

k le..if tiz wkend got time den will post agn ba..
=)

2009-05-02T01:00:00.002+08:00

Firstly..sorry for late postin for the past 2 wks..

cox i reached hm quite late..den v.tired le so lazy to update..
hee..hope u all dun mind..
sianz..my hand is full of blisters..wonder how m i goin to do the fitness test next wk..

stil got alot of route marches to go..
=.=

everytime here pain there pain,everywhere oso pain
=.=

i next wk goin tekong trainin le..
will b back ard 18 or 19 ba..
u all muz miss me n muz tag me often wor..
hahaha!!!

hope can faster pop den get post out to other places..
hohoho!!! muz tat one need to wait till june le..
sianz!!!

alrite..dun reli hav things to blog le..
will blog more when i got time ba..mayb will mia soon oso..
stil dunno lor..
lol..k le..
tat all le..=D

2009-04-12T17:45:00.002+08:00

Sianz..dunno wat to update le..
hmm..juz random update ba..

If one day i had learnt to let you go,
Is not because i don't love you anymore,
Is because is i love you too much,
So i had to learnt to let you go.

Knowing that letting you go is not a simple matter,
But i eventually had to learnt to how to let you go,
Forgetting you is a mission that is totally impossible for me to do it,
I had still been waiting for your email,
Hoping you will still remember me as a friend,
Just hope you could remember that once we are together and had a happy memories before,
Remembered how we know each other?
Yes,we know each other because of Teenage..
After our first meeting,i told you i had feelings on you,
And you accepted me,and since then,we had plenty of happy memories,
We played badminton,listening to our favourite songs,singing together happily,having lots of jokes..
Untill now,those memories had still been blinking in my mind whenever i closed my eyes,
How i wish i could turn the clock back to the past and love you once again and after each time,i will only love you deeper n deeper.

But i know everything had been impossible for me to turn back,
I truly miss our happy memories,but i could only hold my tears just to show that i am a strong person,
My outer is feeling strong yet my inner is feeling so fragile,
I really had no idea how long i could hold back my tears from dropping,
Thanks for your precious love and concern all this long,
And goodbye to your precious love that you had been showing all this while.

2009-04-11T12:17:00.005+08:00

Well..

My daddy n mummy gone to work le..

so bored at hm..

so posted some pics ba..

some r taken quite some time ago le..

ps for late update for the pics..

=DD

tml sun le..

sianz sianz..

mon hav 3 new ppl come to our platoon le..

bored..=.=
dun reli hav things to update ba..

so..let the pics talk ba..=))

After breaking up,couldn't forget every single things that belongs to you,

Regret letting you go,but i am the one who couldn't let go the past,

Regret letting you stepping into my heart,making the whole heart dead after you had left my heart crashing into pieces,

Regret loving you so deep,deep untill my heart had been flooding with those blood that you left in my heart for years.

Putting myself in the memories of the past,

And i am the one who refused to accepted the past that had past for long time,

I don't wish to accept the fact that i had lost you,

So i pretended that i am still a happy boy like what i used to be in the past,

But still,everything that belongs to you had gone,

You had left my world,you left my heart bleeding,

But memories of you stayed in my heart forever and ever.

Apple tea is so YUMMY!!! =DD

Muz try Pokka Apple Tea!! Is reli v.nice!! =D

2009-04-10T00:01:00.002+08:00

Today get to book out on thurs nite..
haha!! till sun nite den book in..
so mayb few more days den post pics ba..
anyway..i next mon goin to shave my hair agn in the camp..
bored sia..

anyway..training stil k lor..
next sat had rifle presentation..
so will book out at nite too..
so bored..sat nite book out..sun nite book in..less den 24hrs..
=.=

BMT goin to start v.soon le..mayb will go tekong for further training le..
so might hav alot of times wont b able to use com..
more info will post in my blog de..so stay tuned kk
=D

After times flies for so long,i realise i still couldn't forget you,
You had still remain inside my heart,deep inside.
It had been years since i received your news,smses or even a single email,
You will never know how much i missed you every night,
I really wished i could make you stay in my heart forever,really wished,
I couldn't sleep at night,even in the camp,i had been thinking of you whenever i listened to the songs on my mp3,
Songs that craved with our unforgettable memories,
Songs that made us so lovely in the past,
Songs that could make me keep thinking of you every moment,every second,
Songs that i will never get sick with,no matter how many times i listened to the songs,i will still love it because all songs contain a part of memories that contains you and me.

2009-04-04T19:57:00.002+08:00

i m back to bloggin le..
haha!! 6days nv blog le..
anyone missing me??

lol..well..today go make new specs..cox my sir expect all of the ppl to wear black specs..
so i got no choice lor..
reach bedok wif my section mate,den go find my mum to eat chendol..

well..
guess will b postin pics tml ba..
haha!! throat v.pain..
tiz few days keep shoutin in the army..so throat now is v.v.v.pain..
sianz..goin to no voice le..
=.=

CR is in the same camp wif me..
i dunno tat!! till he juz now sms me,say saw me in the camp!!
i was totally shock leh!!
den he now bcome driver le..
so gd sia..
hahaha!!! he fitness so gd,oso go b driver..i fitness so shit...i guess my endin would b a bad one
sob!!

well well..
tues is my IPPT le..
hopefully can do it lor..
dun expect to say silver..
juz hope tat i can do my best on pull up,sbj,2.4 run lor..
hohoho..

everyone..wish me luck plz!!!
=DD

tml stil need to go buy watch..
reli dun wish to put on a watch..so is damn uncomfortable lor..
=.=

but no choice leh..inside army..everytime is time,time n stil time..
so dun wan oso no choice..
hohoho!!!

alrite le..i shall end here le..hapi readin ba..
=D

2009-03-29T18:45:00.003+08:00

Hmmm..

last post b4 i go in back to army camp le..

well..

will post 2-3 pics abt me de..

even though is not v.nice..

=xx

juz keep viewin my blog if u miss me lor..

haha!!

=DD

hope can book out next wk agn..

=DD

all muz study hard,take gd care of urself kk..

Tat all le..will update agn when i next book out!! MUACK!!

2009-03-28T20:20:00.002+08:00

hohoho!!!
i m back to blogggggin..
LOL..
i noe all miss my bloggin le..
well..

do some talkin here..
mayb tml will post pics ba..
haha!!
but scared leh..
cox botak no nice la..
LOL..

too ugly le..lol..=xx
yawn..
sianz...
overall..training stil quite k lor..
only tat pull up n swimmin still cannot do it..
so wonder how to survive wif my IPPT??
=.=!!

scared tat if performance not gd,sat cannot go hm..
haiz..
sianz sianz..

i guess all got miss me lor?
LOL!
=xxx

hohoho..so sianz..
tml need to go book in b4 9pm..
sianz sia!!!!

k le la..
others tml den blog..
cox tml stil got things to go buy..LOL..

TC guys!!
=D

2009-03-13T00:02:00.002+08:00

ok!
here is the final timecheck..
today gone to compass point n bought a new hp..
no cam de hp for me to brin to army..
lol..will save some contacts inside in order to sms wif de..
so all muz rem me n rem to drop me tons of tags n comments in frenster kk!!
=DD

goin to wake up at 7am le..so gonna rush to slp le..
hohoho!!!
muz miss me ar!
LOL..
MISSIN U ALL GUYS!!
=D

To JOYCELIN:
u oso say le is b4..since is b4,pursue so much for wat?? bygones juz let it b bygones..
whether u got stead or not oso gd..juz dun care abt me le..even i say yes,like u b4 or mayb didnt like u b4,den so? nth will change..the fact remains..so juz forget everything..n lead ur own life..

2009-03-12T11:05:00.003+08:00

okok..
now is 11.05am..
lol..all wonderin y i online so early?
lol! cox i mornin go for a run..
wake up 6.15am..run till 8am den reach hm..
den bath,watever blah blah till 9+ den go eat breakfast till ard 10.50am..

tonite after 12am will blog agn as i goin to army tml..
so wont b able to reply tags n comments..
sori guys..
but keep the tags n comments rolling ok!!

N help me take care of my blog n prevent spammers..
arigato!! haha!!

alrite..later 4.30pm stil need to go out wif mum after she finish work..
hohoho!!
so sianz..

To JOYCELYN:
Hmm..Afterall,u didnt change at all..u stil like to take r/s as a test..
if u dun hav a basic trust on someone,den u wont bother to stead wif someone..
n u say u wan to noe tat gal tat let me keep unforgetable rite??
ok..i will tell u..her name is CRISS..she is my first stead..till now i stil cannot forget her..
u noe the ans liao,hapi?? n for ur info..not everyone treat a r/s like a test..grow up a bit lor..
our r/s is already the past,no use gettin back to a past which is totally impossible de,u noe? even u can treat ROM stuffs as jokin stuffs? i dun think u treat r/s is a serious affairs..a r/s is a not game tat u can play wif..take it when u like it..throw it when u hate it? u got thought of my feelings when u make tat choice in the first place?? if u think is funny to joke wif such stuffs,i can tell u something.. IS NOT FUNNY AT ALL! dun ever treat r/s as a test n joke tat u can play ard wif..

To CYNTHIA:
I dun care u got read or not..is not my business..
u got guts to scold pcb..den no guts to admit?
gans got alot very big izit??
vulgarity is not for u to scold for fun de..
i think mayb ur gans in ur media box wont last long too..
i guess?? rofl..cox wif ur such attitude..no one will like u..
dare to do dun dare to admit..r u a human?? omg..
i noe i got bad attitude,mayb to alot of ppl, i m a bad guy..
when they get to noe u,they will noe WHO IS THE REAL BAD GUY!

2009-03-11T18:34:00.002+08:00

DELETE ME FRM UR FS IZIT??
haha!! nvm!!

SOONER OR LATER,U WILL REGRET DE!
I NOE UR GANS GOT ALOT LA!!
COME FIND ME IN FS LOR..

knn..
u got think y ppl will hate u or not?
GOT USE UR BUTT BRAIN TO THINK OR NOT?
IS COX UR WORDS N ACTIONS IS FUCKING IRRATING!
u beta use ur time to study hard..
but not step into ah lian de circle..
if u can step into ah lian de circle..i guess u cannot step out agn..

act lian wif me?
u b careful la..
tiz teach u,dun tok so xialan wif other ppl la..
if not when ur face kena buang by other ppl,u oso dunno wat happen..
=DD

2009-03-11T02:51:00.002+08:00

Chao charbo..
i dun care u got read tiz one or not..

u buay song me juz tell me la..
need to scold me pcb behind me??
u noe wat i hate the most?
I HATE IT WHEN PPL SCOLD ME VULGAR BEHIND MY BACK!

if u wan,scold it in front of my face..
if not den diam diam,everything oso dun say!

u wuji scold in front of me,i say u pro la..
knn..i noe u got alot of cb la hor..
dun need to show off in front of me de..

buay song say la..
can go out tok n settle de..

nbcb..wan to tok vulgar wif me?
knn..ccb..pcb..see ur bloody face,i reli feel like slappin it..
WAN TO SCOLD ME,COME STRAIGHT TO MY FACE N SCOLD..
IF I DIDNT SLAP TILL UR FACE RED,I DUN CALL ANDY!

na ma..yao xiu kia..u how old nia..wan to learn like other ppl so xialan?
dun scared later whack by ppl izit?
or u didnt get whack b4??
tell me la..i can call ppl help u do free sugery de..
dun test my patience..EVERYONE DE PATIENCE GOT A LIMIT!
when my patience reach the limit,i assure ur head will burst like a ice mountain..

2009-03-10T01:04:00.003+08:00

I dunno y i m so useless..
Useless in everything!

Whether is in studies,r/s,games or watever..
I m always the loser!!!

no matter how many times i tried,how hard i tried,
Eventually i m stil the loser of the match..
Why??

The one who i loves the most,always hurt me the most..
No matter how i trying to touched u with my sincerity,
eventually u still choose him..
WHY???!?!?!

untill now,i m still hurting with the wounds tat u had given me,
y muz u hurt me when i decide to give commitments?
y muz u hurt me wif ur excuses when i decide to give u my heart??
y muz u leave me when i needed u to b my side the most??
WHY!!! W-H-Y!!!

i reli feel like cuttin myself..
let me bleed to death..
tat will end all the problems
i guess tat is the one n only solution to all problems??

y m i still thinking of u like a crazy hopin tat u still will return to my side???
izit first love reli is the most unforgettable??
n oso the most miserable love of all??

i miss u alot..i reli do!
but i dunno wat to do in order to reduce the love i had for u..
WAT TO DO!!!

i reli wish i could die..
so i could bring ur love wif me to enter to another world tat only belong to me n ur love..
but i afraid tat if i m unable to die,den there would b no more solutions..
haiz..

can anyone tell me wat to do??
i reli feelin freakin miserable..reli do..haiz..

2009-03-08T14:39:00.003+08:00

HAPI BIRTHDAY TO SIHUI!

lol..ps..too long didnt post le..cox dunno wan to post wat..

lol lol..

anyway..my 3rd wishes to sihui liao..

haha!! she is oso the second last person i gave bday wishes b4 i go NS

wan to noe who is the last person i will giv wishes??

hahaha!!

ans is my sis!! haha.her bday is on 16th..

haha! so i intend to buy something for her..but dunno wat she like..

anybody wat gals usually likes?? haha!!!

actually my sis character is like boy..so she wont wear dress/skirt..

hahaha!! =xx

ROFL! =x

she got wallet,hp,perfume,belts,jeans,bags..

so i dunno wat to buy for her..

hohohoh..any suggestion??

LOL!!

sianz sianz..

today gonna buy stuffs for the upcoming fri de NS enlistment le..

hohoho..

omg..

i m nervous to go inside..

HOW??!?!

omg..=xx

got a bit sian..cox i dun think inside got my frenz..so all is strangers..

den i m so...so...so quiet de person...usually dun like to make frenz..

LOL..so go in sure die de..LOL!

HOW???!?!

giv suggestions if u hav leh..LOL!

rofl..

okok..gonna go bath now..waitin for my mum to call den go buy stuffs tgt le..

haha!!

BYE GUYS!! =DD

2009-03-03T23:30:00.002+08:00

When will you be gentle to me like the past?
When are you going to tell me that you won't be able to sleep without me by your side?
Everything had been too late for us to turn back so everything had turned into a full bag of regrets,
Days after days,
Nights after nights,
I am still missing you like a crazy boy,
No matter what i had done,
I am still unable to minus the misses you left in my heart,
Why why why??!?

After so many people passed by my life,
Only you are the one who left the deepest impression in my life,
I wanted to tell you face to face,
No matter what kind of attitude you had given me,
I am still loving you deeply in my heart,
Please,
Tell me what to do in order to minus your love in my heart,
Because i am feeling very very very miserable,
Yet no one is there for me,
What can i do in order to feel better,
What can i do in order to make myself not to miss you so badly,
Who can be the one to give me the answers that i wanted for very long?

My tears had still been dripping for you,
Even my heart had been been crying for you,
But who is there to dry my tears when i need someone to be there?
And when i need a listener for me to vent my nonsence with,
But who is there for me to listen to my nonsence when i need it the most?
Who is there for me to give me a warming hug when i need it the most,
Even is just for a short 5 seconds,
I would be glad because i knew as least there is someone there for me,
But i guess no one would be willing to do that,
Because i am a nobody to anyone.

2009-03-02T23:21:00.002+08:00

To GOD..

Stop comin to my blog n spam here spam there..
juz drop ur big name there la..
say i humji delete ur msgs??
i dun see the need to save ur msgs for big fuck lor..
mean u r the past spammer tat spammed my blog de?
spam somemore lor..sooner or later u will c u r banned frm my blog de..

u say i m a dog?
i think u r a dog more den me..dun dare to use ur name tag..den at there bark here bark there stil dare to shout here shout there??
For ur info..Since when i got say i go around n punch ppl face??
ur eyes got problem izit? if got problem,i suggest u faster go c doc la..get early treatment while it stil got cure..

if u dun like my blog,den u r free to leave la..dun tok so much lor..
blah blah blah..juz a nameless dog..
grow up a bit lor..y nameless dog juz wont grow up de..
hohoho..too bad for u den..

2009-02-28T14:58:00.002+08:00

我的心真的哭了，却没人肯理我，
伤痛再多，多不过背叛的伤痛，
泪水再多，多不过你给的冷漠，
我走在你给的脚落，领悟你给的城诺，
她还是不懂，离开是想要被挽留，
如果开口只能换来你的温柔，那我宁可什么都不要。

你是否知道，你的一个拥抱能改变很多事实的发生，
你的一个吻能让我从黑暗走进阳光，但你却什么都不做，
真的是我爱你太多到你无发呼吸，还是你要的要求太高，
你每次都希望我能放手让你好好的去生活，但你又知道没有你的日子多难熬吗？

你一天一天离我远去，我却只能为你傻傻的流泪，
爱你的日子很难过，想你的日子很难熬，
却没有人明白我对你的思念是一天比一天的深，我好爱你，
爱你到不得不放弃你，但你始终不属于我的，
如果这是你要的结局，那就让它结束在这一秒钟把。

属于大海的，就让你随风而去，
我知道我已留不住你的心，如果留不住你的心，
那我宁可放弃你，让你回到他的身边，
让他好好的给你快乐，好好给你一个你从没得过的回忆。

我好爱你，真的好爱你。

2009-02-27T20:30:00.003+08:00

Hmm..
stayin at hm reli so boring..
dun wan to emo at hm oso cannot
=.=

now tons of chinese words is coming up.
do read..as i dunno wat to blog..so choose to blog chinese words..
hapi reading ba..

我放不过我知己，所以转一圈回到原地，
眼泪是一种提醒，我还爱你
是否能让一切归零，好让我能过爱你多一遍。

都是我不好，一心想给你最好的爱，
但到最后什么都不由给，让你只得到伤心，
可是我的日记还是想念着你的名，希望能够有你陪我，
如果这世界能有少一点怨恨，少一点仇人，少一点无聊，
多一点抱荣，多一点你的爱，多一点好朋友，多一点一切的一切就好了。

你是否还知道我的心每天都在为你流泪，真的很可望一个能依靠的肩旁，
但一天一天的过，我才发现，你一天一天离我越来越远，
越想握住你的手，我越是握不住，
想你的心是一天比一天的重，但我还是放不下你。

我伤你伤的太过深，所以你不再相信我的话，
在你最难过的时候，给你安慰的不是我，
借你肩旁靠的人不会是我，我的心真的很痛，
当你的心痛时，你有他能陪你，
我心痛时又有谁在我身边陪我度过最难过的一关呢？

对不起，让你对我的撤地的失望，
不能给你一个美好的回忆，希望他能代替我好好的爱你，
给你一个难以忘记的回忆，希望能看到你每天好好的笑着过日子。

2009-02-25T16:16:00.008+08:00

Well..Well..Well!

I today find wrestling pics find till like siao kia..

LOL!

cox i reli too addicted to wrestling..

But i still prefer last time de wrestling..cox look nicer..haha!!!

okok..

I will upload tons of wrestling pics..

Reward myself for findin so many pics..hahaha!!!

Readers..muz rem tell me u like which wrestlers ok!! =XX

WWE No Way Out 2009 Matches

Smackdown's WWE Champion: Triple H

Raw's World Champion: Edge

ECW's World Champion: Jack Swagger

Raw's Intercontinental Champion: CM Punk

Smackdown's United States Champion: Shelton Benjamin

Divas Column

Raw's Mickie James

Raw's Women Champion: Melina

Smackdown's Divas Champion: Maryse

Raw's Beth PhoenixLitaTrish Stratus

Current And Former WWE Divas

One half of the World Tag Team Champion: The Miz

Another Half of the World Tag Team Champion: John Morrison

Smackdown's WWE Tag Team Champions: Carlito & Primo

Former & Current WWE Superstars

Former Stable:Evolution(Combination With Randy Orton,Ric Flair,Triple H and Batista)

WWE 5 Top Smackdown Superstars(Rey Mysterio had been to Raw,Lashley/Booker no longer in WWE)

WWE 5 Top Raw Superstars(Edge had been to Smackdown)

2009-02-24T12:29:00.002+08:00

Spamming spamming spamming!
ROFL!
Nowadays de ppl reli gt nth to do at hm izit??

well..
i wont change my URL/private my blog..
wan to come spam..juz come..
i will play wif u..
nbcb..
u r the one who spam my blog..
stil tok till like i m in the wrong??
U OWNSELF THINK..U R AT WHOSE BLOG?
i noe i ownself ugly..
i noe it many yrs ago..so i dun giv it a damn on ur comments at all..
but i juz simply like to take pics..cannot??
GOVERMENT GOT SAY UGLY PPL CANNOT CAM WHORING?

nvm..
if u reli wan to play..den i shall play THE GAME wif u..
MAKE SURE U DUN REGRET IT!
cox it will b a fun game tat is under MY RULES!
=DDD

2009-02-23T11:56:00.002+08:00

你知道我始终放不下,始终不能面对,
你不再是我的宝贝，还看着你离我远去，
能不能再一次让我拥有你的灵魂，抱不到你，
也有你的灵魂陪我做伴。

难道爱上你是我这辈子做错的事吗，但你要我不理你，
我又舍不得，是我给你的爱太少，还是你的要求太高呢？
因为我怎么做，我总觉得你不快乐，难道我们两真的就这样擦肩而过吗？

他不会是个好男人，也不会是个好情人，
但在你眼中，我是个坏人，
我不要你的呵护，你的承诺，
只要你好好的爱我一遍，就算是我贪心也好，自私也好，
那一个男人不希望能被知己喜欢的女人爱呢？

你是否还记得，是你说过要永远的爱我，
是你对我说别人不可能会说的承诺，难道你都忘记了吗？
你是否能够带走我的寂寞，让寂寞变成快乐呢？
如果大浪能带走我的悲伤，那我请大浪冲走我的悲伤，
如果大海能带走我对你的爱，我请大海冲走我们的爱，
让它能去一个属于它知己的世界。

2009-02-20T15:50:00.004+08:00

Well..Attended graduation ceremony ytd..

wtf..so many ppl didnt come..hohoho..

as i didnt took many pics cox my frenz dun like to take pics??

haha!! except takin a pic of me n the principal of college central de lor??

but lazy to put cox i no scanner plus i so ugly..LOL!

anyway..pics r taken few days ago while at hm doin nth..so took pics wif my lappy?? LOL..

Guess wat song is tiz?? HOHOHO!! =XX

Another guessin game..Wat song is tiz?? haha!! =X

Some of my lappy de songs..haha!! all is chinese songs lai de..=D

I admit it,i got beta nth to do so take a snapshot usin my hp of my fs..LOL..

Here comes random pics of mine..=DD

ok..end of the pics..enjoy lookin n guessin ba..

LOL..

2009-02-18T20:04:00.010+08:00

Well well..
tiz 2 days had been goin out to run on the mornin..
cox had to train for army..so no choice lor..
had to force myself to wake up at 6.30am

LOL..
mayb wan to wait till fri den will post agn..so post now plus some wrestling pics..
yup yup..i m a wrestling freak..
n is a die hard wrestling fan..=DD
frm last time WWF till now WWE,i m still watchin it..
n i gonna watch it later at 10pm..
hahaha!!!
i juz simply love wrestling so much..
so mayb tiz few days de posts will start n end wif wrestling pics
n mayb some of my self-shot pics??
hahaha!!!

mayb some of u doesnt like wrestling due to too violent??
but..for me..I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!!
hahaha!!! even hopin to b wrestler lor??
hahaha!!! mayb u all think i m siao lor..
i noe wrestling is fake de..but i stil love it so much..i juz dunno y..
bcome a interest n habit for me le..
haha!! =XX

okok..
enough of tokin le..
gonna to hav tons of wrestling pics comin up..
do watch below for those pics..=DDD

The UnderDog And The 2006 Royal Rumble Winner:Rey Mysterio

Here Comes The Pain:Brock Lesnar

The Doctor Of Thuganomics And The 2008 Royal Rumble Winner:John Cena

Triple H & Shawn Michaels,Together They Are: D-Generation X!

Matt & Jeff,Together They Are The Team Of Extreme: The Hardy Boyz!

The Legend Killer,The Youngest World Champion In WWE History:Randy Orton.

The Cerebral Assassin,The Kings Of Kings,The 13Times World Champion,And The Current WWE Champion:Triple H

The Phenom,The Deadman,Having A Undefeated 16-0 Streak At WrestleMania:The UnderTaker.

The Extreme Of Extreme:Jeff Hardy

The Big Red Monster:Kane

kk..end of the pics..enjoy looking ba..more pics will update soon..=DD

2009-02-16T15:09:00.004+08:00

The feelings is not right,
I had been trying my save back that feelings,
But you are so heartless to hurt my feelings,
By saying that you no longer love me,
Your heart doesn't belongs to me anymore,
And you decide to leave me alone and off you go,
Why? Why? Why?

Can you please tell me that loving you is a wrong,
So i hope i could forget you totally,
And i do not need to stay in a hole of memories that only belongs to us,
Because if you still love me,
You won't let me walk alone,
You won't leave me alone in this world,
If my tears could exchange you back to my side,
I would say i am willing to drop thousand tears or even ten thousands tears just to hope you could return to my side again.

I hope i could be happier then the past,
I do not born to have my unhappiness,
But my unhappiness had been lot more then others,
Even you handed the world to me,
I would still felt empty,
Because i lost you,
I lost you,
Let me have everything also useless.

Seeing you walking farther and farther,
Yet i still had to pretend a happy smile for your sake,
I wonder how long my smile will last,
If i started to tell i still wanted you to be by my side,
Would it change anything?

Without you by my side,
Even i found my breathing is pain,
Because every of my breathing holds a breath of you,
Every of my heartbeat had been beating for you,
When i sing a love song,
My heart is hurt,
And my tears eventually dropped from my eyes to the floor,
Reading your letters had let me been dropping my tears,
Because i stil cannot forget you.

I could only stare into the emptiness forever,
Because i could not forever myself for hurting you once,
So hoping you could forget me in your life,
Treating me that i had never ever exist in your life.

Saying you love me once is such a tough matter,
You kissed my forehead once to tell me you would stay by my side forever,
But everything changed,
Your attitude changes,
Your love changes,
Everything belongs to you in the past doesn't seem to belongs to you in the present.

I could no longer eat neither nor sleep,
Without you,
Everything seem incorrect,
I hope i can no longer fall in love,
Because love is truly hurts,
My loving for you is dying,
But i eventually couldn't forget you,
And i could not cut the love you had gave me in the past.

Once we said could walk together to our future truly belongs to us,
But you told me that you are too tired to walk,
And you wish to walk alone,
But i wonder you still remember the promises you had made to me,
That you walk will walk with me no matter how tough the route would be,
We would hold our hands together and walk together,
No one is suppose to break the promises,
But eventually i spent my valentine day alone,
And when i saw lots of couples holding hands,
I don't know why my heart is filled with aches and enviness,
Hoping that you are by my side,
Now i am still thinking of you,
And i am still missing you deeply,
But did you ever thought of me for just for 5 seconds?

2009-02-14T00:11:00.017+08:00

Hmm..
Tiz few days nth to do at hm..
so sianz..
so started to take lotz of pics wif my hp..
Do prepare to look at my ugly pics ba..
=)

New Yr Stuffs at hm..=D

Bought it after my running on wed..

Random pics..

ok..here is the end of the pics le..hope u all do enjoy lookin my pics..will try to update more pics de..do look forward kk..=D

2009-02-12T17:54:00.004+08:00

孤单的我还是没改变，
还是默默的想着你，
白云已化成乌云盖住整篇蓝天，
爱你的心永远不会变，
爱你的人永远会想念，
就算拥有了彩虹对我来说也只是多余，
因为对我来说，
就连彩虹也是黑暗的，
再美的彩虹我想我一辈子都没有机会体会到了。

人生再美又有什么用，
心已被伤到不能再伤了，
为了你，
我拼命的自我安慰，
希望能在最快的时间忘了你，
然后从新过我的生活，
但我始终抹不掉对你的思念，
曾经有过美好的回忆，
却只能默默地守在回忆里，
希望你能回头看我一眼，
但我知道这希望一辈子都不会实现的。

2009-02-11T14:18:00.002+08:00

能不能不爱了，
因为爱太痛了，
我痛的快死了，
却没人肯救我，
爱你爱的快死了，
想你想到快发疯了，
却不能改变一切已经发生的事了，
我还能做什么来挽回你吗？

最爱你的人是我，
你怎么舍得让我难过，
当我已经为你付出了那么多，
你才选择离开我，
你为什么知道我在为你默默的掉眼泪，
你却不闻不问？

为你留了那么多的泪，
换来的只是一各各伤透的心，
为了你我什么都愿意为你，
但为和你有看不到我对你的城心呢？
无论我做的再多，
恐怕你一辈子都不会看在心里.

难道我真的一辈子只能默默的想着你，
真的不能拥有你吗？
我知道他爱你，
你不爱我，
但我却很爱你，
一辈子只能默默的在远方的看着你，
却不敢喊你的名出来，
因为我知道你一辈子都不会留意到我。

你说你累了，
但你还记得我们曾一起说过要一起走的幸福呢？
你还说过，
我们永远都不能离开对方，
只要有我的地方就有你，
有你的地方就有我，
难道你都忘记了吗？
我也跟你说过，
每年的情人节，
你我的生日，
和圣诞节，
我们都要过我们的二人世界，
但你先离开我了，
过几天的情人节，
你要我如何一个人过？

2009-02-09T14:06:00.003+08:00

Edited my links list,
Do check if any of your name/link is there or not..

Dead links had been removed..
If i had removed ur link by accidently,do tag me wif ur link..
Thousand of thanks..=))

2009-02-07T00:48:00.003+08:00

Can you not tell him that you would be afraid at night,
Waiting for someone to hug,
But that someone is not me,
Can you not tell him that you would only want someone to give you roses,
But that sender is not me,
Can you not tell him that you are always confusing about how to love someone,
And hoping he would give you some precious advices,
Can you not tell me that you are waiting for some kind of love,
But you wish that person is not me.

I know i do not deserve your love at all,
You deserve his love more then me,
You look happier with him than with me,
You make me look like a clown in front of you,
Knowing that no matter how i trying to gain back your love,
You are trying your own way to push me away just to prove to me that i am not worth it for your love.

Do you know that i am trying my very best to smile in front of you just to pretend that i am happy,
Forgetting you really is a very tough job,
But i am forcing myself to give you a smile just to make you thinking that i am happy,
But actually i am not,
Just keep blaming myself why i doesn't learn to cherish you,
Just because one word from you,
I choose to let you go,
That is the moment that i started to had regrets,
But i know everything had been too late for me to turn back.

I know i am not the one who are giving you happiness,
That why i am very dissapointed just because i didn't choose to give you the happiness that you had wished for,
After i had been doing a lot of thinkings,
Wished that i could turn the time back,
You had already turn to another guy's arms,
How i wish i could wish upon the sky,
Hoping you love me for once again,
Sorry that i had dissapointed you again and again,
And hope that you do not put any of your wishes on me anymore,
So i won't have anymore to dissapoint you.

2009-02-04T16:57:00.003+08:00

明知道你是永远不会属于我，
但还是想傻傻的去闯，
我好想你，
但我知道你的心里不能留住我了，
我的心还是很痛，
你要的快乐我给不了，
你要的幸福我给不起，
你要的王子不是我，
傻傻的等着你回岸是我唯一能做的，
笨笨的想着你过日子是我该做的，
因为只有傻傻的等着你会让我记得我还爱你，
笨笨的过日子会让我记得你曾踏进过我的心里。

我什么都不要，
我只要能够好好的爱你，
只要你愿意，
我们能到天涯海角去，
只过我们两个人的生活，
只要你开心，
为你上高山下油锅，
我都愿意，
只要是为了你好，
再多苦，
我都愿意熬过去。

我知道爱你不一定要拥有你，
只要你开心，
无论你跟谁在一起，
我在哪里都会替你感到高兴，
爱情是不能勉强的，
因为勉强是没有幸福的，
如果有一天，
你在天涯海角发现，
还有人对你念念不忘，
你是否会为我流下一滴眼泪，
还是你会想起对你念念不忘的人是我呢？

唯有看到你快乐，
我才能得到真正的快乐，
只希望，
如果有一天你很想找人陪你聊天，
请你不要忘了我，
因为我永远都不会离开你，
你开心我陪你一起笑，
你伤心我陪你一起哭，
你生气我让你发泄，
无论你如何发泄，
我都不会有一句埋怨，
只要你开心，
我什么都愿意为你。

2009-02-03T23:48:00.002+08:00

Everything seem to be impossible for me,
I have no idea what to do is correct,
Everything seem to be lost for me,
After you had left,
No matter what i done never seem to be correct,
Could you stop touturing me and just treat me like a normal friend,can?

Why you could not understand all i want is your heart,
Just a heart that willing to love me wholeheartly,
Why i still can't get near to your heart after time passed so long,
Do you know that i am still missing you deeply,
And keep holding back my tears,
Telling myself not to cry,
But i had no idea how long more i could hold back my tears,
All i need is a listener whenever i am feeling down,
A warm hugging whenever i am feeling cold,
A happily laughter whenever i am feeling happy,
A encourage sentence whenever i am feeling confused,
But i couldn't found it in my world,
No matter how i tried to walk around my world,
I am still confused about the route that i am taking,
My only wish is hoping that you could be able to come into my world and guide me how to walk to the right path,could you?

How i wish i could forget you,
And forget love straight away,
So maybe i won't get so miserable by missing and thinking of you every days and nights,
Whenver i am out on the streets,
Seeing each and every couple chatting happily,
Happily holding hands,
My heart is filled with jealousy and enviness,
But what more i could do when i am the one who hurted you in the first place,
I could no longer turn the time over and choose not to hurt you if i can,
So i guess we could be able to spend happily times together and have lots of memories in our heart and mind.

If time could be return,
Could you be willing to be my girl once again,
And the couple ring would be put onto your hand for once again,
Both of us would be standing inside a pretty christian church,
And saying our promises in front of Jesus,
Saying that we would love each other forever,
No matter sick or whatever,
We would stay by each other's sides,
And takes good care of each other,
No matter what happens,
We will never be apart,
No matter what,
We will always be A PART.

2009-02-01T22:27:00.002+08:00

HAPI 17TH BIRTHDAY TO KUMIKO LIMEI!

hmm..wake up at 1++

eye super duper red sia..

=.=!!

wtf lor..

but only rite eye red..left eye k leh..

=.=

den play com a while le..go bath le..go compass point wif my dad to meet my mum for lunch..

ate kway chap..after tat jiu go cold storage buy 4D..is my parents buy hor..haha!!

den my mum pei me go guardian buy eye drop for red eye de..

drop 1-2 le..stil k lor..

but stil v.itchy..

hahha!!

after tat,den took 87 go hm le..

so boring lor.

feb 19 goin to macpherson ite for the graduation ceremony..

sianz sianz..

last but not least..

kumiko..

u r a yr older le..

hahaha!!

muz study hard..

den next time go find a job tat u truly love..=DD

jyjy wor..=))

2009-01-31T02:25:00.002+08:00

I couldn't forget you,
Tears is a reminder that i am still loving you,
Could you let everything return to zero and restart everything?
I could only stare into a world of darkness,
And keep thinking of you,
As dark clouds had been getting more and more,
But i just couldn't chase the clouds away,
No matter what i do,what i said,
Dark clouds would be there forever to surround me.

Is it a wrong that i fall in love for you,
Or is it a right to remove the curse that you had given me,
A curse that you had given me deeply,
No matter how i tried to give myself the medicine,
It couldn't cure the curse.

Nobody knows that i am still missing you,
I know hate is easier to put down than love,
But when the tears had flood the entire heart,
I think i could let my quietness answer all the questions,
I told you i would love you with all my heart,
But in the end,
I broke it,
I am the person who broke it,
So i got no right to ask for your forgiveness or anything,
Because i know is i deserve it,
This is my retribution,
So just let me suffer alone in the darkness,
Don't care about me and let me be in the darkness forever.

In the past,
When i love you,
You said that i love you too much and you request for some freedom,
When i started to give you some freedom,
You started to said that i started ignoring you,
So can you tell me what can i do is correct?
I love you too much is because i would scared you would leave my side one day,
But when i started to give you some freedom,
You had really leave my side,
Could i love you more and more so you could not leave my side just because you said i am flooding you with my love that you can no longer breathe?
Please,
Tell me what to do in order to gain some of your care and concern and perhaps some of your love?

2009-01-29T00:35:00.002+08:00

Yesterday is 28th..which is my birthday..
Hmm..overall..stil not bad..
wake up in the afternoon..met my mum at tampines for a lunch..
after tat,when to M1 to check about the laptop modem..
didnt bought the old modem,so took 27 then my parent alight opposite stop at compass point
then i took bus to buangkok there,walked home to took the old modem
then took bus 80 to compass point to meet my parents..
=D

new modem look like a thumbdrive ya?
haha!
at first thought of askin my dad to buy something for me as my present,
but in the end,those games shops didnt open for business..
so took bus 80 to rivervale plaza to bought some breads..
after buying,then walk home..
reached home around 8.50pm ba..
watch ch8 at 9..
after watchin,watched wrestling,eat dinner n start to play com
=))

Overall,still can consider not a bad birthday celebration ba..
=))

Here is a thank you list for some friends:

YingYing Cockeye(First person to wish me hapi bday on 25th via BLOG)
Guiqing(First person to wish me hapi bday on 25th via SMS)
HuiFen MEI(Second person to wish me hapi bday on 25th via BLOG)
Kumiko(First person to wish me hapi bday on 28th via SMS)
JiaJin SOTONG BUDDY(Second person to wish me hapi bday on 28th via SMS)

In Random order:

Jaslin(Via blog)
Xiao Xue(Via blog)
Irene(Via blog)
HuiFen(Via blog)
YingYing(Via blog)
JiaJin(SMS & Blog)
Kumiko(SMS & Blog)
Guiqing(SMS)

Thanks all for the wishes..I noe i had been repeatin same names frm the top to the bottom,but afterall,thanks all for remembering my birthday..=DD
Wish all of you had lotz of ang bao to take in this brand NIU year ok!!!
JY in ur studies too..=DD

2009-01-24T21:35:00.002+08:00

Will you be the first person to wish me Happy Birthday?
How i wish i could get your wishing for my birthday,
Even it is in my dream,
I would be very happy,
Because it would be my prettiest dream ever,
As well as it is my best birthday present ever.

But me,myself and I know that dream would never come true in real life,
That would only appear in fairy tales,
And i know i do not have the chance to be your prince once,
Because your dream prince is not me,
And i wish you would return to my side as a princess,
But i know that would never ever come true.

真正的爱情是不要求回报的，
真正的爱情是值得等待的，
真正的爱情是不固一切来付出。

I thought we could have a world that just belongs to you and me,
But when you left me,
Everything seem to be like getting lost for me,
And i thought after you left me,
I would feel happier,
But in the end,
The darkness of my world remains,
And everything are seem to be getting darker and darker.

2009-01-23T15:40:00.003+08:00

对你的想念只有加没有减，好想为你做不可能的事，
为你拔虾壳如果你想吃虾，为你拔螃蟹壳如果你想吃螃蟹，
为你按摩如果你累了，为你察眼泪如果你哭了，
为你学下厨，就是希望你能吃到我做的菜，
借你肩旁如果你需要一个依靠，好想为了你放弃一切跟你一起远走高飞。

离开你是我的错，但我始终放不下你，
时时刻刻想念你，分分秒秒忘不了你，
没有你的日子了，生活真的是很难过，
想你的心没人知，爱你的心没人懂。

如果我们还能从来，你是否还会属于我呢？
我只要能够，再一次好好抱着你，
好好感受爱的滋味，让我有多一点难忘的回忆，
世界因为有你才完美，天空有你才会灿烂。

能不能回到从前，再好好的爱一遍，
不管多久，不管多远，我只要你在我身边，
如果时间能倒留，你是否还会解开我的谜惑呢？

如果我的坚持到底能换回曾经的爱，就让我用一生来等待，
如果我们的美好回忆你已经不在留恋，就让它随风飘去，
是不是爱你就能拥有你的心，想你就能拥有你的人？

能不能再给我一个好好爱你的机会，我答应你我不会再离开你身边一步，
从此会好好的保护你，爱护你，疼爱你，照顾你的点点滴滴，
我好不习惯没有你的日子，真的是好难过，好希望能再好好的抱着你，一睡到天亮。

2009-01-22T13:21:00.003+08:00

在远方的你，是否能感觉到有人还在默默的为你祈祷呢？

我每天都在过没有意思的生活，觉的生活是淡的无味，

但我又能做什么呢？只希望如果有一天，我已不在这史上，

希望你能把我放在你心里最深的地方，好让我过的有安全感。

我每天看着人来人往，好希望能看到你的脸，

但几百万的人，我却看不到你的脸，

我真的无法忘记你，我还是好想你，

有你，我就好像有了全世界，

失去你，我得到全世界也淡的没味道。

想着你微笑的脸，想念只会越陷越深，

请不要忘了我，如果我让你太烦感，

那就提早忘了我，因为我不想从烦感变的深深的爱。

我知道你只是渴望你双翅膀让你飞翔，

及然翅膀已在你身上，那就好好的飞翔吧，

如果有一天，你决定了你要降落的地点，

我肯定会在你降落的地点默默的等待你。

2009-01-21T20:54:00.002+08:00

Dunno wan to say wat leh..
as usual wake up lor..
haiz..
stil like missing u n keep thinking of u leh..
tell me wat to do ar??
i hopin tat i can ask u go to my bbq gatherin..
if u can go,i guess tiz is the best bday present of tiz 19yrs le..
haiz..but i noe u cannot go de..so i wont force u..
some say is stupid,y u like her,dun dare to go for it leh?
but i reli dun wan u to hate cox of my irrating attitude..
haiz..cox i scared if i bcome too good towards u,my feelin towards u will go deeper n deeper..

haiz..tat y i choose to keep my feelings in my heart..
only i,myself n me noe abt it..
haiz..how i wish i can go out wif u agn..
go to the places tat we went b4 agn n agn..
haiz haiz haiz..
plz tell me tat u willin to go out wif me agn..
juz a simple outin wif u,the one n only u..
i would be damn hapi n smile for ur sake..will u??
haiz..

Ever thought that loving you is such a difficult matter,
Knowing you is my destiny,
Being with you before is my fate,
Breaking up with you is my regret,
Being friends with you again is my pain.

2009-01-20T01:46:00.009+08:00

Random pics.. =)

Edited usin my hp de..=))

Sunday's Pics

kk..tat is all for the pics..wake up 1+,juz keep feelin so sleepy..=.=

hmm..den went to serangoon garden here to eat stingray agn as my mum wan to eat..

order carrot cake,chicken wings,satays n of cox the main dish is stingray..

haha!! after eatin,my dad go buy soccer,buy le soccer den take 136 back to kovan to buy some new yr stuffs..

buy le jiu took 119 go hm..reach hm 7+ nia..so bored lor..

if got time mayb will take a pic of my hse is full of new yr stuffs..c le oso blur..LOL..

k lor..dunno wat to blog le..sianz..stil thinkin whether wan to hav my bbq or not..if last min cancel confirm will kena kan by frenz de..haiz..sianz!!! wat to do leh??

thot a bbq gatherin is quite simple de,mei xiang dao is so complicated de..=.=""

boring!!!

i m stil thinkin of u every mins,every sec..haiz..emo-ing ba..it might b the best way for me ba..

2009-01-18T01:35:00.002+08:00

Why i am still missing you and thinking you,
Knowing that everything belongs to you doesn't belongs to me now?
Thinking of you is now what i can do,
Please,
Let me know what to do in order to sense just a bit of happiness?

I had a thought of suicide when i thinking that i lost you,
Because i had nothing,
I am alone afterall,
So thinking that,
Why still bother to live in this world without you by my side.

Just will keep thinking of the happy moments that we had,
Even though the moments are very short,
But to me,
I had the whole world in the hand,
But after you left me,
The whole world had crashed into pieces,
Just in one single night,
Everything had been crashed into pieces,
Why i still need to bother to think about your affairs when i know no matter how i trying to find back the love will never ever come back?

In the past,
I felt that being with you every second,
Just like having every single one of my wishes come true,
And no matter how many miles are between us,
Our love would always be there,
But know,
Even you passed me the entire planet,
I am still feeling empty,
Because the one and only pretty tree had fallen apart,
So had any others tree would only be the extras in the forest.

I always thinking that we will be together till our hairs grows grey,
Facing each new day,
But now,
In the tears that fallen upon my face,
Your memory fades away.

You are just like some salt on my opened wound,
Reminding me that you once were here,
Warm like the blood in my veins,
The love i had for you.

I once felt that i am the luckiest guy in the planet,
Because i had you by my side,
I am lucky enough to show other guys that you are mine,
But everything had changed just in one single night,
And now,
I am only the loner guy in the planet.

2009-01-17T13:55:00.002+08:00

Well..
Tiz few days lazy to blog as gt nth to blog cox keep slackin at hm..
countin to my ns is gettin nearer nearer le
so bored..
CR go ns le..no one pei me chat le..boring lor..
i wonder he manage to book out durin 22th or 23th leh?
LOL! den if can den i drag him go BBQ..=XX
Anyway..Today is GINA NUER de 14th bday le..
Yr after yr,u had grown up a yr older le.
haha! muz jy in ur studies hor..
Daddy will pray n jy for NUER too de..=DD

hmm..dunno wan to blog wat leh..cox got nth to blog de..=.=
so boring..go out oso borin.stay at hm oso bored..
anybody stil wan go BBQ?? Faster confirm wif me hor..
=DD

2009-01-14T17:25:00.003+08:00

Tagged By Vicki Crazygal to do this quiz..=)

1.Who is the last person sms-ed you?
JiaJin Sotong Buddy..

2.Your relationship with her is?
Sotong buddies..=D

3.Your 5 impression of her?
Cute,Friendly,Pretty,Sweet,Joker

4.How long you're friend/gans with her?
Hmm..Many months le,but didnt count..LOL..

5.The memorable thing she gave you.
Friendship..=DD

6.If she become your lover,you will?
Be happy ba,i guess? lol

7.If she break the friendship with you what you will do?
I guess she wont do it ba..=D

8.If she become your enemy what you do?
Tried own best to save this friendship..

9.If your girlfriend wanna break what you will say?
Of cox is try to save this r/s lor..=))

10.Do you want to change your stead for what she is in now?
Nope..B ownself is the best..=D

11.Do you want to be famous and let people know you are Bi,Gay,Les?
LOL!! too bad i m not anyone of it..

12.If you're a gay,les,Bi and your school know it,what wil you do?
Den like tat lor?? lol.dun hav tat day come one..LOL..

13.How did you get to stead with your stead?
Via Teenage Magazine..

14.Are you a straight,Gay,Les or bi?
Fei hua,of cox is straight lor..

15.If you're a homo and your parent want you break with your stead,will you?
Lalala!! not my problem at all..wahaha!!

16.What was the present your stead gave you on your 1st month?
Nothing..

17.What you love about your stead?
Love mean love lor,stil got love abt wat..=.=

18.Did you went before your stead house?
Yup..met her mum b4 too..

19.Name 5 things you hate about your stead?
Nothing ba..

20.When is the date that you started the relationship?
170808

21.When is your last relationship ended?
201008

22.If you're a homo,do you wish to let your classmate know?
Lalala...too bad i m not..

23.Do you ever got a ring from your stead?
Nope..Rings is i bought for her de..=D

24.Name out the 5 things that your stead buys for you.
Hmm..I only got paper stars frm her..

25.What is the fav thing you get from your stead?
Paper stars n straw heart..

26.Did you sacrifice for your stead?
Yup..

27.Will you risk your life for your stead?
Mayb ba,wait got tat day den say ba..

28.Did you kiss,LC with your stead before?
I think majority de people did it b4 ba,include me oso lor..LOL

29.Who is your last relationship person?
Joycelin

30.How many ex you got?
4

31.Do you know anyone is crushing on you?
Mayb??

32.Are you a hongster?
If u think i m den yes lor,if u think no den no lor..

33.Will you tiongxim with your stead?
of cox lor..

34.Do you believe in love?
Yup..stil waitin for my ms rite ba..

35.Can your stead tolerate you?
Shld b lor??

36.You have pass through how many months with your stead?
2months+ ba

37.Why did you break with your stead?
Izit a vaild reason if i say she lies to me??

38.Who is the one who ask a stead request?
Me lor..

39.How long did your last relationship end?
2months plus

40.Name out 10 people that you wana sabotage to do this quiz.
Lazy to name..Let it be the 10 lucky people to tag my blog de to do it ba..=D

2009-01-12T01:20:00.003+08:00

歌手：光良
作词：光良　作曲：光良

我带着一颗疲惫的心走了我知道自己在你心里已不重要
虽然我们曾经相聚过也许对于你来说
已经没有什么值得回忆我带着一颗沉重的心走了
我知道自己没有勇气道别离虽然我们曾经拥有过
但是对于你来说已经没有什么值得回忆

难道早以注定不能真正拥有你难道我真心付出一切
只为了承受孤单和寂寞我知道你不敢对我坦白
是不要看到我的伤怀虽然你没有说要离开
我已经感到你不再属于我
如果你还爱我你不会对我如此的冷漠又怎会让我在漫漫长夜独自徘徊
如果你还爱我你不会对我如此的冷漠我只能含着眼泪默默的离开

难道早以注定不能真正拥有你难道我真心付出一切
只为了承受孤单和寂寞我知道你不敢对我坦白
是不要看到我的伤怀虽然你没有说要离开
我已经感到你不再属于我
如果你还爱我你不会对我如此的冷漠又怎会让我在漫漫长夜独自徘徊
如果你还爱我你不会对我如此的冷漠我只能含着眼泪默默的离开

如果你还爱我你不会对我如此的冷漠又怎会让我在漫漫长夜独自徘徊
如果你还爱我你不会对我如此的冷漠我只能含着眼泪默默的离开

2009-01-09T01:36:00.002+08:00

Why am i stil feeling so down?
Why am i stil feeling so empty in the heart?
Why am i stil wishing to see you appear in front of me again?
Why am i stil crying for you again and again yet no one give it a damn on me?
Why am i stil hoping to hold your warm hands in the middle of the street to prove to others that i am so proud to have you by my side?
Why why why???

I do not understand why my heart is still so hurt when i started to think of you,
Why am i so stupid to keep missing you when i know everything had been impossible for me?
I really wish i could hate you to the core,
So that i won't be so miserable like now,
But i can't,
No matter what i trying to do,
I just couldn't hate you,
Is it because of the memories that you gave me is too deep for me to hate you?
Or is it because my heart is no longer can hate anyone at anytime?
The love that within you is really too deep for me to put down,
Even though i know the love is too heavy for me to carry,
But i had been forcing myself to carry it,
Am i really so stupid to carry a hope which i know is totally impossible to fulfill at all?
Or is it because i am unwilling to put down this burden and had been pulling me back from walking away?

I am really very tired of anything,everything,
But no matter how i tried to walk,
I am stil stuck in the world of darkness,
Haiz..

2009-01-08T01:14:00.003+08:00

Some of my friends said i am emotionally unstable,
So what if i am?
Does anybody cares whether i am mentally unstable or emotionally unstable?
I don't think so,
I don't think even when i am dying,
Anybody will cares or bother about me,
Because i don't DESERVE anybody care neither nor concern nor even pityness,
If you think that i am mentally unstable or emotionally unstable,
You are free to disown me this friend,
Because i don't give it a DAMN.

Forget it,
No one would cares whether i am dead or alive,
Sometimes i am thinking,
Is it when i am no longer in this planet,
Problems will not keep coming?
Because i don't even know what problems that i had,
That is what is the biggest problem of all,
Haiz,
I am really really tired living in this world,
Who can free me from this world?

I am really very tired missing you every night,
Thinking of you every seconds,
But what can i do?
That is why i said i am really tired living in this bloody world,
Haiz..
I am really sick and tired of living in this world,
Anybody can tell me what to do in order to be happy?
Why i live in this world 19 years,
I can't felt a bit of happiness living in this world?
Days are getting darker and darker for me,
And no matter how candles are lid,
I can no longer see a bit of light,
I had been blind by darkness,
And it would forever been blind.

2009-01-07T01:19:00.002+08:00

At first i thought i can stop myself from crying,
But when i miss you too much,
My tears eventually cannot control itself,
And i am so hurt,
Why i wish to have someone there for me,
Eventually there is no one for me,
Why i wish to have someone for me to cry on,
Eventually there is no shoulder for me to cry on.

I am so hurt and pain now,
Who is there to understand the pain that i had?
Who is there to understand the suffers that i had in my heart?
Who is there to listen to my rubbish when i needed someone to be my listener?
Who is there to lend me a shoulder when i needed something to lean on?
I guess nothing and no one is there for me.

I am sorry,
When i promised you i won't cry,
It is all fake,
Tears eventually dripped down from my eyes,
No one knows my pains,
No one knows my tears,
No one knows my heart is bleeding,
No one knows i am dying.

Why others could get so called "EverLasting Love",
But i don't get to see it,
When i didn't get to see it,
I won't be able to sense it,
When i didn't be able to sense it,
I will die due to over-bleeding,
Trust me,
Over-bleeding won't last long,
It will be over soon,
When you will no longer see a lonely boy in this world,
Talking about rubbish things.

2009-01-06T01:04:00.002+08:00

You really had changed le,
In the past,
When you changed your blog URL,
You will tell me your new URL,
But now,
You just changed your blog URL without telling me,
I am wondering,
Am i a friend to you?
Even i am ugly,
I don't even deserve to be a friend with you?
You hate me also don't need to do things untill this stage de,
You do things untill this stage,
Do you know my heart is damn damn pain?

Why you didn't thought of people's feeling de?
I am not dead leh,
Why you can treat others like your friends,
But cannot treat me like your friend??

I hate it when people change URL or MSN or HP no then didn't even bother to tell me,
Since then,why still bother to be friend with me in the first place?
Be friend with me then next second just like a stranger,
Then why waste your energy to find friends??
I hate it man!!
I hate myself too!!!
FUCK IT!
SUCK IT!
I hate myself for falling for you,
But everything is useless,
Everything had been unchangeable,
I do not want things to goes into this stage,
But since you are the one who goes this stage,
WTF more can i say?
Because no matter WTF i said is TOTALLY USELESS le..
NBCB!!!! haiz!!

2009-01-05T01:24:00.003+08:00

I found myself slowly fallen for you,
But when you started to ignore me,
Everything had been lost to me,
I felt extremely lost when you didnt reply me in MSN,
I felt extremely lost when you didnt reply my smses,
I guess let nature takes its course,
And let fate decide our destiny ba,
No matter what you doing,
Where you are,
I will be praying for you secretly,
Hoping you would get nothing but the best,
One day if u decide to reply me,i hope we are still friends,
If doesnt,then let it be ba,
I wont blame god for setting such a ending,
As i know what is best for you and me.

I will prayed for u and give you blessing no matter where you are,
No matter in your studies,relationships,family problems,friends problems,
I will pray for you that the worst would go away,
No matter what,you are FOREVER in my heart.. =)

2009-01-03T00:09:00.002+08:00

Every day had passed,
But what had you done,
In order to be happy?
You choose to leave me,
And choose another happy and cheerful world,
Since then,
My world had become a darkness world,
Why after the time passed so long,
You still won't show a little concern to me,
Just for 5seconds will do,
Forget it,
I know you won't,
Because your side now got him,
And shows that you are happier with him,
It is the fact,
I can do nothing at all but to accept it.

You know what i am doing every night,
I cried in the middle of the night,
I couldn't sleep at night,
I used watching TV and playing computer to try my best to forget you,
But my tears eventually still dropped down to my cheeks,
I cried every night,
I sat in a corner just hoping no one would saw my tears,
As i don't wish anybody to get worried about me,
So i cried secretly in a corner every night,
Hoping one day you would be there to dry my tears,
Untill today,
My one and only wish,
Is to hope you would always be there to dry my tears.

I am trying the very best to tell myself to think about your bads in order to hate you,
But i do not know why the more i told myself to hate you,
The more i could not bring myself to hate you,
In fact,
I hate myself more then you,
I hate myself for not cherishing you,
I hate myself for not loving you when you need someone to love,
I hate myself for everything that i did to hurt you,
No one could ever decrease the hates that i had for myself.